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holy shit, it's so late, but i have to write this now before i forget anything. so. woke up this morning at 10, fell back asleep and woke up at 10:45. went and took a shower, got dressed, did hair. cleaned hamster cage, productive! then, when i was making food, around 1:30ish, jakelyn showed up! yayayay. ate a sandwich and soup, mmm. started getting ready to leave at 2:30, and left at 3. took a bunch of stuff and my new coat. soooo fucking excited. THE STARTING LINE? whattttttt? and envy? for the second time in 4 days? love my life. sooo, the drive to philadelphia was really long and boring. listened to those two bands the whole time, and only stopped once. we got to philly and it was dark out, around 7ish. drove around for a little in the big city. it was sooo beautiful. reminds me a lot of nyc at night. except a lot cleaner! so, better :). wish i coulda taken pictures! the last time i went there, it wasn't at night. so yeeee! it was very nice. found the venue, the trocadero, and waited in the front in the car until doors. waited for the line to get short and then went in with jake. first thing we did was pee, LOL. the venue was nice, but the bathroom wasn't! whatevvv. walked around after that, saw members of envy, aw! then we went to buy tsl merch. i got a hoodie and so did jake! put our crap in coat check and then walked into the main room. a local band played their last song, and then we moved further into the crowd. envy played almost the same set as the did on sunday, except shorter! only 7 songs :( they ended with gift of paralysis, awww. i wish the crowd was more into them, because they're so great. like, sososo great. passionate and really genuine people. i know everyone was there for tsl but they should've supported them more. oh well, i was screaming and singing! it felt gooood. and i love when they play x amount of truth and then go into vultures, the bass is sooo good. aaah! well. they ended and i had the most insane butterflies. maybe 20 minutes later, the lights went dim, the crowd screamed, and everyone ran forward at least 5 feet. i haven't been in a serious pit since i don't even know when, and at that moment, i realized why i do it. the band walked out, and then kenny jumped on stage and turned around and played his first note. innnnnsane. this crowd was the craziest i've ever been in. i can't even. before they said anything, they opened with up and go. i honestly couldn't even hear kenny because the crowd was singing so loud. it was the greatest thing i've ever experienced. after that was making love to the camera. i thought of you, of course. but yeppp, AMAZING. direction and then surprise, surprise! such great lyrics. this was so insane. then inspired by the $, are you alone, a goodnight's sleep. 21 blew my mind, of course. AH. then what you want, ready, artistic license, birds AH!, way with words, given the chance. right after that, kenny said, "who has... something left to give?" and i FLIPPED. 2 seconds later... "this song's called island." LOL. the crowd went insane anyway. deadddd. they said 2 more songs :( somebody's gunna miss us, and then best of me. holy SHIT. best thing of my life. during all of this, kenny was thanking everyone, and then said, "it's because of you guys that we're gunna start doing this more often." HOLY FUCK, dead. i have literally never heard a crowd cheer that loud, for that long. then "starting line" was chanted. kenny literally screamed "SHUT THE FUCK UP" into the mic and then laughed because we were so loud and insane. they also kept hinting at more shows the whole time. when they went offstage the one more song chant was literally IMMEDIATE. it took a little while, but they came back out. something left to give? holy fuck. i died. that and playing favorites are my 2 favorite songs by them. ahhhhhh. then, last song was leaving. appropriate. the crowd was absolutely insane, fun, crazy, sweaty, loud, and everything i love about shows. yesyesyes. love my life so much. after the show, me and jake fixed ourselves and then i went to talk to ryan hunter. talked about shows and long island and the 516, and sunday! haaa. he is so damn sweet. took a picture :) aww, dw. after that, we got our hoodies and then walked out. i mean, i knew i wasn't going to meet kenny, so that's fine. i'll meet him again one day :). got into the car really excited. AH. the drive home was faster, obv. left at 11:30, stopped once, SKETCH SKETCH, got home at 2:45am. LOL. it's now 4am. i'm delusional. but this was necessary. thank you, the starting line, for dedicating tonight and last night to us. you have such a huge impact on your fans. i wouldn't have missed this for the world. i love you. i love tonight. i love everything. kiana and paloma are awake as well, talking to those girlies now :). tomorrow, last day of 2009? this is weird. xo.