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today..... idk. kinda realized that i don't really have anything to be upset about. i'm trying to be better in school. i really am. but i know this isn't the best i can do. idk why i can't actually put everything into anything anymore. that's kinda bad. scared for my report card, just a little bit. mainly because i know that my chem dropped a lot. so did global probably. hopefully math went up. hopefully i can do better. i need to start actually caring. scared for after christmas break because the same thing that happened last year, might happen this year and that would really fucking blow. i can't be like that again, seriously. welllll, i sound like i'm in a bad mood? that's not good. i'm not in any mood. very nothing right now. been that way for the past few days. but that's probably not a good thing. oh but, i just had an idea. one day soon i'm going to be very truthful and open in my blog. i'm talking about naming names. i'm sick of sumblimital messages between everyone. i just want you to know how i feel. i may pussy out and not put names, idk yet. but i think i should. not to hurt anyone, of course. i mean, half the people i have in mind will never read it anyway. i just don't want to write paragraphs about "numbers" of people who will have to sit there and wonder, but never really know, which one they are. so yeah. that's my plan. but nowww, i think i'm going to go to bed early. who knows. xo.

ps. cut my bangs today. go me.