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i know i live in the past. but this is the day we met, and i miss you so much. so many things are reminding me of you, and idk. it just sucks how everything "ended," i guess. there weren't really any words of closure. kinda of an asshole move. but given your conditions, i understand. i really hope we talk again soon. i went over a year without talking to you last time, don't make me do it again :/. anyway. my life consists of reading and looking through old conversations, pictures, everything. old memories. that's what i'm doing today. and it's funny how today was the day you told me not to live in the past. i know you're right but what can i do? this is how i am. first of all, i'm sorry i wasn't myself today. i told you why but i know, it's hard to understand if you're not going through it. i'm just being dumb i guess. idk. before i go on, i'll tell you about my day. first of all, i woke up at 6:50. aka 40 minutes late. i don't know how i got to school on time, honestly. i even showered..... LOL. i don't know. start to a bad day, i guess. ears are killing me. the morning is so annoying. i don't get chem. got a 73 today, cool. i feel like an idiot in global. now i'm sorry i went into regular. i don't mean to sound self absorbed or anything like that, honestly, but i know that i possess so much more intelligence than a majority of that class. i could be in pre-ib. i'm kind of sorry i didn't challenge myself this year. because that made me work harder. i'm seriously doing so bad in school. ughhhh. idk. hung out with boy after school. don't worry, and don't be sorry. it's obviously me. you put me in such a good mood, so trust me, you did help. anyway. did my massive amounts of homework already, thank god. now i'm going through all my 365 pictures. it's insane how much has changed. like, literally insane. i know i've said this a million times, but i'm so glad i can remember everything about a full year of my life. because, you know me. i'm all about remembering. xo.