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aaaah. well, the good part of today. my picture. yeah, it's not every day your favorite band announces the release date of a new full length. holy shit, love my life much? :) i was kinda freaking out. anyway. the rest of today was kinda shitty, idk. school is starting to get unbearable. i don't get shit and i'm doing so bad. worse than any other year, ever. it just makes me really mad. today was the first time this year i cried of stress. not the only time today, though. :/ idk. i fucking think way too much. well, i'll try to put this in order. school put me in a bad mood. came home too late, went on the computer too long. and you said something to me. i could not tell you why i cried after. i know it wasn't just simply what you said, maybe i just started thinking about us. that's been upsetting me lately, and idk why. ugh. why am i so dumb sometimes? anyway. tried to go do homework, which i don't understand. ever. kept falling asleep. then i woke up in a bad mood because my mom was yelling at me for sleeping? idk. ate dinner and now this. i still have to study for spanish but whatever. it just seems to me like whenever i'm in a bad mood, i think of everything possible to put me in a worse mood. it sucks that i'm like this. i feel like i'm such an obnoxious person, people i think like me actually don't, idk why i'm so paranoid. i know i don't give a shit what people think of me, but i do if i like them, you know? i don't want to be one of those people you act nice to on the outside but once i leave, i'm shittalked. i feel like that happens all the time and i couldn't tell you why. i know i'm annoying sometimes... a lot of the time, but idk? idk anything. i'm just in a bad mood today. at least sba made me smile with his little twitter countdown. oh and, you gotta believe video! it is honestly fucking adorable. i love how dedicated he is to his fans that he wanted to put everyone possible in his video. ded. iloveyou. welllll uh. my arm is killing me and so are my eyes. cool shit. i might edit later? :/.

edit. it's 11pm. i just streched my ears to 0g, finally. they're pretty much killing, my ears fucking hate me. but whatever. ummm. don't know why you flip over the slightest thing. you act like it's my fault, when it's no one's. idkkk. idk, ever. whatev. holy fuck my ears hurt. they're swollen and like, pulsating pain. shittt. well, uh. probably gunna go to sleep soon. which may or may not work...LOL. peace.