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wow. wow, wow and wow. seeing that number up there? that's completely and utterly surreal. three hundred and sixty five days, pictures, blogs. since january 1st, 2009. and now, it's the last day of 2009. how weird is that? i'm so glad i did this, so glad i accomplished this. there are so many memories here, that now, i will never forget. i've watched myself change over the past year, so much. so much has changed. i remember the first day, i wrote this, "yep, three hundred and sixty five pictures. i hope they will depict my life and give me many memories to look back on eventually." wow, if i only knew back then how much this would effect me. 2009 might have started bad, yeah, and there might have been really horrible times, but if i didn't have those times, how would i know happiness? 2009 has also brought me endless happiness and good times. i've discovered who i can truly trust and count on, who my best friends are. so many shows that changed my life, so many people who inspired me, so many sleepless nights with my best friends that i wouldn't trade for the world. and now, tonight represents a fresh start. a new year filled with new experiences. that's what every new year brings, right? ahhh. so, as far as this blog. i don'tttt know! i'll continue with my tumblr, at destroymypride.tumblr.com! i've been doing that for a little while. and i can see myself writing in this from time to time. i'll write more later :) xo!

edit. 2009, i will miss you but i won't at the same time. i'm leaving for my aunt's house soon with my mom, mike and jess. chris is meeting us there. actually excited to see mah family! meh. idk. i don't like how new year's eve kind of depresses me. but i'll get over it. i need to look at the positive side. maybe make some new year's resolutions. hmmm: put more thought into photo projects, make an effort to talk to my friends and make time for everyone, be nicer to my parents, be a better girlfriend, and of course, this is necessary, see bryce at least 4 times this year. that one is the same as last year! cause i didn't exactly accomplish thatttt. but oh well. anyway. i'll try to end this blog (wow, end?) with something meaningful. happy new year, everyone. there's only 5 more hours left. and everyone, everywhere, is changing. whether it be dramatically in one moment, one day, or gradually, over time. everything is changing. i hope that you make the best decisions for yourself, and live your life to your liking, not anyone elses. i really have so many people to thank for shaping the person i became the past 12 months. and god knows there is plenty more change to come. it's weird to think that if one thing had gone differently, you might be a different person. these are all just random thoughts that go through my head. but i want everyone in my life to know that i'm so grateful that you're here. everyone's had their fair share of struggles but they make it through them because of the people willing to help. in 2010, i hope to exemplify my gratitude. to everyone. random acts of kindness are a good thing to start with. people always say that they want to make the world a better place, but no one really ever knows where to start. but that's what life is about, isn't it? finding out which path to take in order to better your life. this is my goal for 2010. thank you for being my outlet this year. i will always remember 2009, the good and the bad. for the people who may read this, thank you for even glancing at my words. this means a lot to me, i'll miss you. for the last time, xo.