i don't know. today kinda sucked. really didn't do anything. not even my photo project, oh well. gunna walk around and do it tomorrow with law, hopefully. um idek. i've been having mood swings and anxiety and shit so much lately. kinda bad. i always feel kinda lame posting up on the internet that i cried but so what? this is my blog, my mind, deal with it. i've been bored for hours. but i know i won't sleep. whatttt else did i do today. oh, funtimes, read through all the old shit in my journal. i know just what to do to make myself more upset, don't i? i almost got the nerve to text you. but i feel so damn unimportant now. i just want to know how you are. i love when i write things down word for word in my journal though. like texts. it actually makes me smile. anyway. now it's past 10 and i think i'm gunna go watch tv soon or something. shiiiit. also, i think i might start on that naming thing. i'll only do a couple because i don't know if i can handle more than that. and just know that this isn't meant to hurt anyone.
tor. i love you to the moon and back, and i really agree with you. i miss you so much. and not just in the sense that i haven't seen you in a while. we still talk everyday and everything but i want it to be how it used to. i was looking through old pictures today, when we would all have a sleepover, literally every weekend. i really miss it. we don't make enough time for each other, and i'm seriously really sorry for that. but don't you ever think for a second that i'm not your best friend. you and law are all i need, remember? i love you so much and thank you for being everything i could ask of a best friend.
greg. i genuinely care about you but i rarely want to show it. i've accepted the fact that you will be in my life reguardless of what i do, and i'm okay with that. i'm glad we're friends. i didn't like when we didn't talk, it didn't feel right. but i want you to know that the things you do are not right. i would have a guilty conscience if i were you. my only advice is that you need to learn from your mistakes and your bad decisions. trust me.
heather. i really love you and i'm grateful to have you as a friend. but i'm concerned. you didn't have to tell me something was wrong, because i know. i can't stand seeing someone in pain. especially one of my close friends. i really want you to be okay. in anyway you can be. just know that i'll always be here if you need me.
think that's it for today. more tomorrow, or the next day.... yaknow. whenever i feel it.
tor. i love you to the moon and back, and i really agree with you. i miss you so much. and not just in the sense that i haven't seen you in a while. we still talk everyday and everything but i want it to be how it used to. i was looking through old pictures today, when we would all have a sleepover, literally every weekend. i really miss it. we don't make enough time for each other, and i'm seriously really sorry for that. but don't you ever think for a second that i'm not your best friend. you and law are all i need, remember? i love you so much and thank you for being everything i could ask of a best friend.
greg. i genuinely care about you but i rarely want to show it. i've accepted the fact that you will be in my life reguardless of what i do, and i'm okay with that. i'm glad we're friends. i didn't like when we didn't talk, it didn't feel right. but i want you to know that the things you do are not right. i would have a guilty conscience if i were you. my only advice is that you need to learn from your mistakes and your bad decisions. trust me.
heather. i really love you and i'm grateful to have you as a friend. but i'm concerned. you didn't have to tell me something was wrong, because i know. i can't stand seeing someone in pain. especially one of my close friends. i really want you to be okay. in anyway you can be. just know that i'll always be here if you need me.
think that's it for today. more tomorrow, or the next day.... yaknow. whenever i feel it.
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