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today was a verrrry good day :). laur slept over last night and we chilled until she left around 3. then a couple hours of boredom, and then tor came! love mah best friend. lul we watched "he's just not that into you" on demand and it was seriously the cutest thing ever. it didn't look that good but holy shit, it was. omg love it. we also ate applebee's during the movie. mmm good. overall, it was a fun day. so much for the first day of summer though, IT RAINED. ohwell. hopefully the weather decides to not be shitty, real soon. so, tomorrow is my english final at 10am. DNW. but tuesday is my last regents. and then it's fucking summer, holy shit. it already feels like it without any homework. this is amazing. anyway. i still miss so many people. certain discussions have brought up people from the past and i miss them so much right now. it really sucks when nothing even really happened, you just grew apart. hopefully i have the courage to try to fix some shit. i'd love for everything to be the way it used to be. i'm totally happy with my friends right now, though. they seriously mean the world to me. especially you three. i love you so much and i appreciate you more than you will ever know. it's the people that stick with you through everything that are worth holding onto. maybe i don't tell you this enough but i would seriously be nothing without you. love you all. okay i'ma go chill wif datur now! bye :)

edit. "if he wants it to happen, he'll make it happen." that's definitely true. and i guess the same goes for you. i don't want to admit that it probably won't work but i guess it really won't. i don't know. i'm getting tired of trying to keep my hope alive. i just wish it seemed like you were trying. xo.