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i really don't fucking know. before i rant, i'll talk about my day i guess. i started my last week of freshman year today. it doesn't feel any different yet but it will. by the time friday comes around i'll basically be staring summer right in the face. minus testing and all that shit. which, by the way, i am not prepared for. at all. i'm still fucking falling asleep in math and bio, the two classes i can't afford to miss. i'm so scared. i got my third practice math regents back today. on the first one, 64. second, 51. this one was a 71. so i guess that's better. but who fucking knows what i'll pull come june 16th. ahhh fuck. anyway. school was pretty okay. besides the everyday assholes, my classes weren't that bad. we're not really doing much besides reviewing. idk. the end of the year is so bittersweet, because summer is coming but there's still the fucking BATTLE of finals and regents. ugh. i can't. anyway. after school i went home and did most of my homework. at 5:30, i left for bethpage to go to my people to people meeting. i got my nametag, scheduling shit and luggage tags. pretty fucking legit at this point. t-minus 40 days until i leave. i was pretty excited as i was leaving the meeting. but of course, something has to happen. my mom asked me what my brother and i had a talk about last night. i replied, "it doesn't really matter, not really your buisness." so, yeah. i could've said it better. but her response was in no way justified. "who the hell do you think your talking to? you better start treating me right. what the hell is wrong with you? are you stupid? you can't talk to me like that. you sound like an asshole. you treat your mother with respect. i'm not putting up with this bullshit." for those of you who don't know my mom, she doesn't curse. ever. so what the fuck. i don't understand. i apoligized and she continued to go on and on about how i take everything for granted and how fucking selfish i am. because of one fucking comment. everyone is such an asshole. i'm still fucking pissed off. what the hell. i got home and finished my homework, but got really frustrated because it was math.. another practice regents.. and i didn't fucking understand one question. i give up on school. fuck it. i don't care. i tried for so long and i'm fucking done. whatever. i just want school to be fucking over. wow. i curse too much. ajshfjfashkf. peace.