...pissed off and stressed today. so much homework. this is the last week of school, it would be nice if it actually felt like school was ending. what the hell. i came home from school and was distracted by you. fucking asshole. not a good distracted. because i honestly don't want to deal with you. like right now. what am i doing? i know i did the right thing by making peace but in no way did i wish this upon me. again. for the millionth time. just fucking stop. stop saying all this bullshit and trying to make me do stupid shit. i'm not dumb anymore and i won't fall for your tricks. what the shit, i don't care if this is obvious. i care about you but it's a lot fucking easier when you're gone. anyway. another thing that's bothering me. i miss you. i haven't talked to you lately. and it kills me. you're the one thing i really do want. it happened so fast, so i don't know how to explain anything, but all i know is that i want you in my life. i've definitely seen how different you are from everyone else and i really love it. i'm hoping i didn't do anything wrong and i don't seem attached. it sucks when you don't answer. but i'll get over it. um. wow. ridiculously stressed. always. i can't take this shit. i wish i could fast foward 2 weeks, seriously. i definitely wouldn't regret it. what the fuck. i just want everything to be over with. like, really? i have fucking 4 more days of school left and i still have 2 hours of homework every night? maybe more? whaaaaat is going on. i hate this IB shit. it's not worth it. so basically, everything is pissing me off today. fucking everything. lately, i've been saying "i hate everything" all the time. just like i used to. and for the most part, it's fucking true. i'm really not looking forward to tomorrow. i hate school so fucking much. and i need you, i hate when you're not here. 11:11. make a wish.
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