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one of my favorite shirts. especially because love is a reoccurring theme in my life. idk. i'm pretty lame. i was thinking about writing a poem here, that i wrote last night. but whatever. it'd be mad obvious, so i won't. i don't want you to say (more?) shit about me. but jfc, the least you can do is let our friendship stand. also. you should stop your bullshit right now. stop trying to give me a false sense of hope. i don't care about what you hear. it's probably not true. what the hell do you know? i don't trust you nor do i care. something that matters so much to me shouldn't be played around with. you never even had a chance, so don't be bitter or try to start more shit. or whatever the fuck you're trying to do. whatever. alright so, this is the important part of this blog. i was thinking about it today. if you have any problem with me, i want you to tell me. i want you to contact me and tell me straight up. i don't care if we're best friends or if we've never even spoken before. this goes for everyone. you can comment me here, IM me (catxclandestine), facebook message, myspace, whatever. but no anonymity. i want to get everything out in the open because i want to fix myself. i can't change the past but i can correct my actions for the future. so let me know. don't be afraid. i can handle it. i'll let you know how that goes.