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this isn't a scream for attention. this is my blog and this is how i feel. yesterday's glues on repeat. The stars are moving on, and I am staying home, and I can't help but ask myself, where did I go wrong? It has to be this way, there's nothing left to say, it never helps to hear that things will be okay. you should think about how much i care. maybe you'll realize, it's a hell of a lot.

edit. i love you so much and this has become my main priority. i can't even concentrate, i can't think, i can't sleep. i've pretty much dropped all my other problems. i wish everything would just stop for a while. i can't do this without you.

edit 2. it feels better because at least i know you care. i'm sorry for everything and i wish i could change the past. you say you're over it, so i guess i'll move on. but i'll always be conscious of it now. i just really hope things aren't weird, because you're my best friend and you always will be. i love you.