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simplicity. because of the past week, i've become conscious of my flaws. when i'm with someone and i say something, i actually think about it. at this point, i only realize immediately after i say it or do it. hopefully, over time i'll get better at stopping before i take action. things, coincidentaly, have been getting better. my problems seem to become smaller with the help of my friends. there are still a few things that need to be done, but i know i'll do them. i have some concerns, of course, but i know it'll pay off in the end. this weekend is keeping me happy. plans with the people that really matter, yaknow? the people i love. i barely have any homework today. only really things i could start that are due in the future (which would probably be a good idea.) this includes my paper for global and my practice regents for bio. i don't want to have to worry too much about that stuff over my little 4 day break. so i think i'll go start them and hopefully get a lot done. i feel like i will accomplish a lot today. and that's truly a great feeling. anyway. here are a few things that are left unsaid. 1. i honestly can't stand you. sure, you have your good moments, when i like you. but so much of the time i just wish you were gone. um. this may make me a bad person but, i dunnnno. grow up. 2. i seriously do not understand you. do you not see us trying to do everything we can? obviously, we don't want you to feel the way you do. but it's getting to the point where you're bringing it on yourself. there's only so much we can do. hang out with us. you're invited to all the time. but you just don't. i don't get it. you'd think you would be eager to. but it really just seems like you couldn't give a shit. we're the ones who don't care? look, you've got to put effort into this, too. that's the only way it's going to work. you get back from friendships exactly what you put into them. you're living proof. 3. recently, we've become really close. i'm so glad that you're someone i can tell anything to. i really appreciate your constant advice. we're both cynical people and it's wonderful. everyone thinks i'm just judgemental, but you get it. we have so much fun together and i really wouldn't trade it for the world. thank you for opening up to me and letting me open up to you. everyone needs someone like you in their life. i know you'll read this and i want you to know this is you, because you must know how much i appreciate and love you. so i'll give you a hint.... meow -wink- :). 4. bestfriend. you know that i could never live without you. i love you so much and i want you to know that i appreciate you so much. i want us to be as close as possible, and i want to tell you everything from now on. i've learned how much you can help me and i'd really love to always have that in my life. thank you for caring so much. so, anyway. i guess today has been pretty alriiight. every day is getting better. i live my life, and other people live theirs, and that's all i can ask to be done. peace.