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wahaha. finally done with my paper for global. 2,071 words and 10 pages later. it only took 12pm-5pm ahahaha. my life. oh well. that's why i didn't plan to do anything today. so, um. i could talk about so many things right now. but i just don't know where to start. chrissy and i had a long talk last night about basically everything. i love talking about shit with her, because i just feel like she gets it. it's so easy to relate things with her. and she just seems to know all the right advice to give me. it's really something that i cherish and i'm so glad we've gotten as close as we have this fast. it's great. but anyway, last night. i hate when i'm put in uncomfortable situations, when people are talking shit about people in front of me. people that i don't have a problem with. it just sucks. i feel guilty about everything. that's why i'm glad i know how to keep my mouth shut. i just don't get how this much drama could start. i mean, i know there are always gunna people that don't like each other, but it just sucks when it comes to this point. i don't want to get involved but it's hard when it involves so many of my close friends. i just wish everything was okay because it would put so much less stress on everyone. and that's something that everyone knows. seriously. sometimes i wish all this shit was just simpler. idk. this 4 day weekend has felt like summer, especially saturday night at nicolette's. i can't wait for that. i just want to be free of stress, and with my best friends all the time. this summer is gunna be awesome. as soon as school ends, i'm hanging out with everyone for 3 weeks. then europe for 3 weeks. and then back to enjoy the rest of my summer and relax. i seriously can't wait, it's gunna be the greatest. i just hope that summer is not a time for drama and all this shit. it's just stupid and i think everyone should forget about the past, and forgive. especially forgive. that's what friendships are based on. we will get no where with stubborn people. i just want to enjoy hanging out with my friends with no strings attached. i don't want to get caught up in all this. i'm really not looking foward to school tomorrow. i'd do anything to just be done. not looking forward to the word "regents" being thrown at me in 3 of my classes. this stress is just unreal. i haven't been crying that much lately. i feel like that's weird. it probably is because i cry about everything. maybe i need to let everything out. there's so much shit i care about enough to cry about. it'd probably be good for me. fuck. i really can't go to school. fuckkkkk. well. only 15 more full school days left this year. hoooo shit. better go quickly. i'm gunna go take a shower, and then eat dinner. i need relaxation. FUCK. i hate school so much. whatever. peace.