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the last bit of sunshine at the end of the day. always a sigh of relief, i don't know why. it's peaceful. "It's a new day, it's a bright day, even when you stand in the dark. It's just that you've been broken into fifty pieces. Today is gone. I'm the only light that you see. You need someone, I know all you needed was me. Everyday we wake if it takes too long, just tell me something new. Forget about the sunshine when it's gone." so today was good. i guess there's nothing exceptionally bad or anything this week. it's good. i wish i had a larger vocabulary. stress has not lately been taking over my life, but it has taken over yours. it was almost like passing the flame along. i'm sorry because i don't know what to do. i want to help you but i just don't know how. it's been hard here, i know. but we're together, and it's been proven that that's all we need. i'm sorry i'm not always the greatest. but i really do appreciate you, no matter what you think. please take a step back and look at your life. you don't need anyone else to tell you what they think is wrong. you need to see it yourself, and i guess the problem is that you don't. you don't want to because you know the answer. idk. i wish this was a better situation. anyway. rms. you are, in fact, the greatest. i don't know why i'm so afraid of this. when i came to that realization, i didn't know what to do. i still don't know what to do. how can i overcome something i didn't even know was there? i wish we could talk about it but i don't want to upset you. please forgive me. i'll come around eventually... i hope.