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hello. so this is one of my like, 4 signed belts. maybe my favorite. i wore it today because i needed it. to be constantly reminded of these people. it made me smile. first and foremost, in the bottom right corner of this picture, is bryce avary's signature. with no exaggeration, my favorite person in the world. may 3rd, 2008 is when this went down. bamboozle. it was pretty amazing. b, thank you for being everything i need you to be. thank you for saying and doing what meant the most to me. miss you. love you. this belt is also signed by: rian dawson of all time low, john o'callaghan of the maine, alex marshall of the cab, all of envy on the coast, and all of forever the sickest kids. sigh. it makes me think back to those nights that i will remember forever and i thank the people involved that they were. and for making them some of the greatest nights of my life. haven't been to a show in almost a month. won't be at one until april 28th. god, i miss it already. anyway. today was better, i guess. who knows how it will turn out. i'm sitting here right now, aren't i? it's only 4:45. but, i'm thinkin it will be better. i've done my spanish and bio homework already. all i have to do is study for math, review for english, and work on my projects. i had a really good idea for my english project today in school and i feel a lot better about it. cue in sigh of relief. i had something else to say but i can't remember it for the life of me. you'll hear from me later. hopefully.

edit. today was good. surprise. i felt pretty much no stress. it's only 10:30 and i'm almost ready to go to bed. the only thing that's bothering me is you. yes, i care about you, no, i will never forget these feelings. but please, get out of my life. i've realized that i can't talk to you harmlessly. it's just who you and i turn into. "call me foolish, i feel helpless." it doesn't take a lot to know you're an asshole. and to me, it's no exception. i'm tired of it. it used to be cute, now it's just annoying. i don't need another issue to deal with. i will you out of my life but deep down i know it will probably never happen. you'll always be there. whether i like it or not. i was just about to delete all this, but whatever. i don't care if i don't make sense. fuck it. this might sound like i'm in a bad mood but i'm really not. i'm just ranting. today was a good day. tomorrow is friday. outlook positive. goodnight.