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first of all, i'm sorry i can't give you a better message. i don't know what to say. it seems like i've gained composure while i'm in school but seriously, the moment i get home, the anxiety hits. i'm just so frustrated with everything. every time i try to concentrate i get distracted. that never happened before. i don't know why it is now. ugh. i'm just too angry and mixed up to even talk. i keep falling asleep, too. i'm sitting there trying to do my homework and i close my eyes for a second. i wake up half an hour later. i just want to kill everyone. i have absolutely no idea what to do for my english project on to kill a mockingbird. i sit there and do nothing. i don't even know. frustrated tears coming now because i'm thinking about it. is this normal? why do i cry at the first sign of stress and frustration? so, i try to do my laundry because maybe that will make me feel less anxious. it did the opposite because now i have that to worry about, too. i don't even know what to do anymore. i wish for summer more than anything else so i don't have to worry about this. tminus 4 months. ugh. the thing that keeps me smiling is thinking about europe this summer. i'm learning about the renaissance in global right now. like, michelangelo, da vinci, raphael, and all the art and stuff at that period. the ceiling of the sistine chapel. david. the mona lisa. florence, italy. i'm gunna see all that. i'm so excited. okay well, i'm gunna go eat dinner, do laundry, try to study for bio... gl gl. and try to be in bed around 11. hopefully. ps. rest in peace. i hurt for you more than i let on.