59.

it's hard to believe that was ME in kindergarten.. ahahaha. i like my hair today. and i feel good. so maybe today will be good. actually, it will definitely be good. laura's picking me up soon and then we're going to tracy's :) yayayay best frans. minus TOR who i haven't seen in a week and who is going to the city today! lmao life. ok ok i might bb later to tell you about my day. okay bye :).

58.

i'm not that stressed but i've got bigger problems. i don't even care to talk about it here. i have nothing to do on a friday, and i'm sitting in my house. whatever. maybe i'll write later.

edit. i have starving your friends on repeat right now. i don't know why but it fits my mood at the moment. "Cause I fall three times as hard if its for nothing at all, you all seem twice as tall as I will ever be, and I feel terribly small when my head works too hard. When you think with your chest, there's not a thing that you don't see. I'm hardly capable of half the damage that I would like to do. I could swear that I don't care but you know I'm too full of shit to think this through. So look at me, I pray to god but curse too much to be considered true. I'm just like me, I'm just like to me, so who the hell are you?" idk. i feel like i have a lot to say right now but i don't know what to say. i feel numb. i think maybe i'll try to get some stuff out. but it's late and i might not make any sense at all. but that's usual. first of all. (wow, i'm already tearing up.) first of all. i don't know why you tell me i'm gunna fuck up my life and destroy it and i'm not gunna be able to control anything anymore. believe me, i know myself a lot better than you ever got the chance to. please. i know how i am and what i do. if i was doing something that put me outside of my comfort zone, i wouldn't do it. i come to you, upset, and you just yell at me because you "care so much about me." that makes a lot of sense, right? it makes sense to make me cry more. i don't get how we are. i feel like you could never value me as a person. so why should i believe that you care? the past is the past, and i know that, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt anymore. i don't know what to say anymore so i'll stop now. i'm not gunna say second now, because this could lead to a lot of things. i don't know why i didn't do anything tonight. i guess i need nights like this once in a while but i usually end up thinking too much and getting sad about something or other. it's the kind of quiet disposition that only you yourself can understand. i don't know what to say anymore. i'm sitting here thinking about god knows what. idk. i just feel so alone sometimes. the thing that happens is like, i feel like someone doesn't like me, so when i talk to them, it's weird. and then gradually, we just stop talking. and then i won't talk to them anymore because i feel like they don't want to, and they probably feel the same way. it's a vicious cycle. yes, i'm thinking about one person in particular, but that's nothing new. it's always that one person. i just don't understand what's happening. i need the help you gave me. you have this new exciting life with all these new people and have forgotten about me. well guess what. i loved you. so much it hurt. i probably still do. i probably always will. i don't know why you didn't see that. or just never cared. god, i fucking miss you. there's no other way i can say it. i miss you in my life and i wish you could see that. things are supposed to be "better" but we show no signs of it. i'm tired of this. you said you'd never hurt me. but i guess a lot of people lie about that. i don't know why i keep talking. it's gunna get me in trouble one day. maybe i should write in my actual journal more, and not post it here. idk. why do tears always come so easy to me. i cry over every little thing. it makes me feel dumb. and why the fuck am i so random. ugh. this is deffinitely more than too long. i know i'm gunna have more to say, so i guess i'll put that in my actual journal. idk. peace.

57.

hello. so this is one of my like, 4 signed belts. maybe my favorite. i wore it today because i needed it. to be constantly reminded of these people. it made me smile. first and foremost, in the bottom right corner of this picture, is bryce avary's signature. with no exaggeration, my favorite person in the world. may 3rd, 2008 is when this went down. bamboozle. it was pretty amazing. b, thank you for being everything i need you to be. thank you for saying and doing what meant the most to me. miss you. love you. this belt is also signed by: rian dawson of all time low, john o'callaghan of the maine, alex marshall of the cab, all of envy on the coast, and all of forever the sickest kids. sigh. it makes me think back to those nights that i will remember forever and i thank the people involved that they were. and for making them some of the greatest nights of my life. haven't been to a show in almost a month. won't be at one until april 28th. god, i miss it already. anyway. today was better, i guess. who knows how it will turn out. i'm sitting here right now, aren't i? it's only 4:45. but, i'm thinkin it will be better. i've done my spanish and bio homework already. all i have to do is study for math, review for english, and work on my projects. i had a really good idea for my english project today in school and i feel a lot better about it. cue in sigh of relief. i had something else to say but i can't remember it for the life of me. you'll hear from me later. hopefully.

edit. today was good. surprise. i felt pretty much no stress. it's only 10:30 and i'm almost ready to go to bed. the only thing that's bothering me is you. yes, i care about you, no, i will never forget these feelings. but please, get out of my life. i've realized that i can't talk to you harmlessly. it's just who you and i turn into. "call me foolish, i feel helpless." it doesn't take a lot to know you're an asshole. and to me, it's no exception. i'm tired of it. it used to be cute, now it's just annoying. i don't need another issue to deal with. i will you out of my life but deep down i know it will probably never happen. you'll always be there. whether i like it or not. i was just about to delete all this, but whatever. i don't care if i don't make sense. fuck it. this might sound like i'm in a bad mood but i'm really not. i'm just ranting. today was a good day. tomorrow is friday. outlook positive. goodnight.

56.

first of all, i'm sorry i can't give you a better message. i don't know what to say. it seems like i've gained composure while i'm in school but seriously, the moment i get home, the anxiety hits. i'm just so frustrated with everything. every time i try to concentrate i get distracted. that never happened before. i don't know why it is now. ugh. i'm just too angry and mixed up to even talk. i keep falling asleep, too. i'm sitting there trying to do my homework and i close my eyes for a second. i wake up half an hour later. i just want to kill everyone. i have absolutely no idea what to do for my english project on to kill a mockingbird. i sit there and do nothing. i don't even know. frustrated tears coming now because i'm thinking about it. is this normal? why do i cry at the first sign of stress and frustration? so, i try to do my laundry because maybe that will make me feel less anxious. it did the opposite because now i have that to worry about, too. i don't even know what to do anymore. i wish for summer more than anything else so i don't have to worry about this. tminus 4 months. ugh. the thing that keeps me smiling is thinking about europe this summer. i'm learning about the renaissance in global right now. like, michelangelo, da vinci, raphael, and all the art and stuff at that period. the ceiling of the sistine chapel. david. the mona lisa. florence, italy. i'm gunna see all that. i'm so excited. okay well, i'm gunna go eat dinner, do laundry, try to study for bio... gl gl. and try to be in bed around 11. hopefully. ps. rest in peace. i hurt for you more than i let on.

55.

hello, this is my brad pitt magazine. courtesy of jessica bernat (:D). the article and pictures are amazing. it sits on my desk and seriously never fails to make me smile. anyway. today was okay i guess, it was funny as far as school. oh, people. i have a bit of homework. i've done math, english, spanish, and bio.. now i just need to work on my projects for global and english. ugh. i still feel like i'm procrastinating. i need to stop texting and sleeping in school. how am i gunna do well this way? blah. oh, so.. i made a last fm yesterday haha. http://www.last.fm/user/catclandestine go stalk me more. why am i so lame? idek. i might be going out to dinner tonight. if i feel accomplished enough to leave this house. "if i only had the heart..." i'm so weird. i don't know why you're reading this if you are. i might just say i'll be back later to write more. so maybe i'll actually do it again. good luck with that. xo.

54.

ugh. so this is my desk on a busy day. (aka every day i have school.) this is bullshit. i have so much homework. i'm feeling stressed already. this is not good. it's only monday. the first day of 6 straight weeks of school. i can't do this. i don't know why all this pressure is put on me, and students in general. brb, crying, because i have 2-5 hours of homework every night. and no time for other shit. this is stupid. okay well, i've done almost all of it so far .. just have to read 2 chapters and answer questions. so i guess that's good. i want to have better days. i don't think i even make sense. oh well. i'm gunna go have dinner, maybe i'll write later. (i always say that, but almost never do... maybe it's time for a change.)

edit. i'm actually back because today got worse. i just fell into the dark. i hope it's not a long term thing. this is not a cry for help or anything. i just need to say what i feel i need to. it might not, scratch that, it won't make sense. but that's for no one to worry about. i just don't think i'm up for this anymore. i have a semi-charmed life. i have everything i feel i need and then i feel i have nothing at all. this might sound like i'm being selfish but i know i'm not, so it's okay. i just feel like i'm crying all the time for reasons i don't even know about. like right now. i'm trying to say that i'm not okay but i just don't know why or how to spell it out. even to myself. i want everything to be good and easy, but it seems like it never stays that way for long. if i try to give examples, they will sound trivial and meaningless but i'll try anyway. school has never been such a big problem for me. how many people know that i cry every day without fail because of stress? no, i don't want you to feel bad. that's just a fact. things just keep coming at me and i feel such fucking anxiety it's ridiculous. i'm a perfectionist. i can't help it. i don't even know how to keep up with my own life anymore. i'm not gunna sit here and tell whoever about how broken and fucked up my life is, because truth is, it's not. it's just not. but somethings missing. and i feel like it's my own fault. like if i was a different sort of person, maybe i would be happier. and that's exactly what bothers me. it's not like i'm a horrible person (anymore.) i just don't know. i am absolutely relentless at this thing called life. i try so hard to make it perfect and in the end i make it worse. i don't know what to do anymore. i don't know what anyone could tell me to make it better. because it doesn't make sense, not even to me. the problem is me. i hope i can fix this before i let it take the best of me.

53.

so, doodling is pm my favorite. i love writing out lyrics or quotes or whatever is in my head. i feel like i'm good at it. this part says "it's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything." it's one of my favorite quotes from the movie fight club (bradpitt bradpitt bradpitt bradpitt). no but really, even besides him, it's one of my favorite movies ever. this page also says: "think of me what you will, but before you do, don't" -alex gaskarth. "take my hand and we will run away" -the cab. "and god must be a pretty big fan of today, because you keep waking up to it" -jamie tworkowski. and "our lives are defined by oppurtunities, even the ones we miss" -benjamin button. it's pretty cute. so, i'm not really doing anything today. idk. i barely had any homework this vacation, which is something very new to me. i only had to read a chapter in a book and answer 5 questions about it, which i did yesterday. wooooooohoo. also, i don't know why but i feel like i need you again. it's weird to think about you in good ways like i used to and i don't want to get in over my head again. i'm scared. i just want you to be here. i want to talk to you. i want things to be easy. i want you to be better and to never have to struggle like this again. i want all the best for you, despite what i've said in the past. i would never wish you harm. keep that in mind. i'm not a little girl anymore. i will depend on you just has much as you depend on me. and i don't know where i'm going with this, because you'll never read it. but oh well. yeah, idek. i hate sundays, especially rainy ones. but i guess i'll make the best of this one. i might be back to write more later. peace. ps. i miss you.

52.

gotta be quick again, sorry. really didn't do anything today, except read this. 690 pages of amazing. ask to borrow it. you won't be sorry. i'm off to dom's party. be home around midnight. i love you.

51.

must be brief. off to sammy's for the night with tor and laura. i love my best friends and my life. goodbye <3.

50.

awwww, so qt. i love my best friends so much. more than you know. so today was .... interesting. i woke up, read for an hour, and then got ready. tor picked me up at like, 4, and we went to laura's. we had dinner and it was DELISHHHHHHHH and filling. lmfao. buttered pasta with cheese, these potatoe things that were amazing, and yummy bread :D yay. okay so, then we went to my house? idk why. we ended up driving around with my brother, met up with some of his friends at taco bell, and then we went to barnes and noble by ourselves. while walking into b&n, i got a phone call from katrina. she and natalie were at the this providence / sing it loud show, and i asked her to call me. i answered the phone and heard "the sand in your shoes" in my speakers. i was seriously THE happiest person ever. i haven't heard it live since november 07. ughhh i can't. standing there singing along made me so happy. i wish i could've been there, so baaad. oh well. thank you SO much katrina, you have no idea what you did for me. anyway, after that, we wen't to chris' house and chilled with chris, erik, henry, dan, jill and some other people for a while. then we went to 7-11 and got home around 10:45ish, and then best franz left. lifeeeee. so, i really want to talk to you, i need to. it's become something i expect at the end of the day. and maybe that should be a bad thing, but i don't think it is anymore. maybe it's good for us. hell, we're not perfect, there are constant reminders of that. we could help each other. this could be really good. just don't go and try to fuck things up again, okay? i want things to stay like this. hmm. i wonder if people read this, beside my best friends. and if they do, why they don't comment or say anything to me about it. it's weird to think about. there's so much stuff i don't know. i like thinking about it though, it gives me hope sometimes. you never know. if i were to ever write a book, no one would read it because it wouldn't make sense. only to me. okay, i feel like an idiot. i talk too much. forgive me if you read this. i'll stop now. peace.

49.

so, today was fun :). i woke up around 11 and read an article in a magazine about brad pitt :D. then, i was texting tor and we decided to go to the movies. i took a shower and blowdried my hair and then watched fight club with my brother ... forth time in 2 days ... :D i'm great. ok ok and then at 3, tor and laura came here and we went to elwood and saw coraline. all i have to say is that the people who made that must've been SO FUCKING HIGH. omg it was ridiculous. how is that a children's movie? i would shit myself if i was a kid. anyway, now we're here on the computer being stupid :). ayayayay best franz! okay bye!

edit. so tonight, i've been thinking about how much i've changed over the course of a year. i've learned so much. been hurt and been healed. gotten new perspectives on life. had regrets and then thought about them and didn't regret them anymore. so many people have come and gone and each one has effected me in a way. i feel like i'm so different, yet still the same in all the right places. i mean, i know i'm not perfect, i could never be, but i feel like things have changed for me. in the best way possible. last year, i barely even cared about my exsistance. that was such a scary time. again, "i'm ready to love everything because i've found the people worth failing with." seriously, the people in my life right now are the best thing i could ever ask for. thank you for making me who i am, a better person. even when i'm not. xo.

48.

so, this is what i bought yesterday. i'm done with it already. i highlighted quotes and phrases that i really love. one of my favorites is this.. "It's never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit. Start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of, and if you're not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again." seriously, this is so amazing. this movie gave me hope and taught me some great lessons. as i was reading the book, the movie was playing in my head. it really is amazing. because right now, i feel like a lot of people dislike me. idk why. but i'm going to hang out with gina and david probably. so i'll go do my hair before my straightener burns the house down. peace.

47.

so, i'm still wif the best :) lifeeeeee. this is in target and i love it. QT SHOES. oh and, i bought a bpitt movie and the book of benjamin button. i'm awesome. i don't have a lot to say today. i love my best friends way too much ! xo.

46.

so today was THE FUNNIEST SHIT EVAR. omg lmfao. so, i went to the mall with tracy and tor at like, 4. chilled, YAKNOW. wakkawakka. and then that happened... lmfao. so now, tracy and tor and possibly lawlaw are sleeping over :). ayayayay best franz. here are some of the best quotes from tonight... "WAKKAWAKKAWAKKA" "he's wearing a harry potty scarf!" "i saw her in the password - i mean, hallway!" "A CAR DOOR JUST SMACKED!" "what did i just flip on?" "seven ... buh i look a lot olduh." "i didn't piss on you AIGHT? ...least the cops con't prove it HUHUHUH." "LET'S GO TO COMBS!" "i love my life ... and i hate tracy's." "WHY IS THERE KETCHUP ON YOUR HAND?" "i'll be there in SEVEN MINUTES." ok anyway, i love them. today is great. xo.

45.

so, this is why i love my best friends. yes, these are homemade sugar cookies. yes, the c stands for catherine and the b for bryce. everyone understands this. it's the cutest thing ever, am i right? backround on my phone. anyway. last night / today were so much fun. at sammy/jake's, i played manhunt at like 9, with tor, laura, sammy, connor, kristina, caylin, megan, sean, joe and amanda. mad fun except for one thing in particular. oh well. we did everything we always did, which is basically sitting around doing nothing and loving doing so. it's pretty weird. but amazing. we went to sleep around 3 and woke up at 9. that's when the cookie making began, from stratch. pretty intense. i don't know what i would do without my best friends. "i'm ready to love everything because i've found the people worth failing with." i love you all. so now, it's valentine's day. fun! not. but i'm making the best of it. my dad's working late and my brother's out with his girlfriend, so my mother and i ordered applebee's and rented brad pitt movies. yes, strictly brad pitt. another understanding. life is good. xo.

44.

i'll be brief. this is shitty quality because it was taken quickly. today was amazing so far and it will only get better. i'm off to jake's in a few to spend the whole night with best friends. i couldn't ask for anything better. vacation has begun. ps; i drink lemon lime gatorade more than an average person should.

43.

hahah i don't even know. i was really hyper when i took this. i love the sun above my head :). so i guess my complaining yesterday paid off, because i had almost no homework today. i did spanish and english and school, so all i had to do was a ccc assignment thing and study for math and bio! hehe. i might be going to best buy soon to get a couple cd's, so i'm excited. tomorrow's FINALLY friday, and i couldn't be more happy. vacation! and also, tomorrow will be the greatest night with my best friends. everyones going to jakelyn/sammy's. EVERYONE. i'm excited. we haven't done this in forever. so, i'll post my picture early tomorrow. and then i'll probably have one with them for the next day :D. ok ok, that's pretty much it for today. i miss you ! goodbye. xo.

42.

ahhhh. comfort. i love my shower. anyway. today was crazy. i have craploads of homework every day but today seemed like so much more. i was so stressed out. i came home from school at 4:00, walked into my room at 4:02, and didn't walk out until 7:33pm. (i tend to remember dates and times and such) anyway, the entire time, i was doing my homework. like, is that ridiculous or what? people who know me know that i'm not a slacker in any way. and for me to spend 3 and a half hours on homework... it's ridiculous. when i schedule for next year, i'm only taking IB english and global. idc what my parents say. i can't handle this. anyway, on the plus side, my father and i looked at my bank account today. i haven't spent any money in 38719 years because i want to prove to my parents that i'm willing to save up for my camera. so guess how much i'd saved? 273 dollars. :) yep! i was so happy. i didn't spend a dime of my allowance and it really paid off. i put 173 of it in my savings account, so i have like, 620 in there. 620 dollars closer to my camera! i'm so excited. also, i don't like this week. it's going WAY too slow. how is it only wednesday? i felt like MONDAY was friday, jfc. thankfully, only 2 more days of school, and than 9 days of reeeeelaxation. of course, i'll be with my best friends night and day, so i can't wait for that. life is gooooood. (sometimes :D) ps; happy 24th birthday william eugene beckett! love you more than you know.


edit. i felt the need to add this. these lyrics have been in my head all day and they mean a lot to me. "Cause if you want love, we'll make it. Swim in a deep sea of blankets. Take all your big plans, and break em. This is bound to be a while." i have been listening to john mayer, all day, every day for about a week. love you boy.

41.

every time i look at my agenda, i smile. i love making collages, of anything and anyone. this just happens to be one of my favorites. especially the man on the upper left of both sides. william bradley :). besides him, i have: elijah wood, james franco, joaquin phoenix, john mayer, ashton kutcher and david beckham. so cute :) plz and thank youuuuu. i just really wish my printer wasn't dumb and printed these line things? over all my pictures? oh well. so far, i've done global, spanish, english and most of bio homework. still have math. my life sucks. i really think i'm dropping IB shit. i can't handle this. okok bye ! ps: "When you see a person, do you just concentrate on their looks? It's just a first impression. Then there's someone who doesn't catch your eye immediately, but you talk to them and they become the most beautiful thing in the world." ily brad. bye!

40.

why does my computer ruin the quality of everything? anyway. yesterday was a monumental day. i saw it coming since this summer but it fact that it's official gives me butterflies. blink 182 is back together. recording a new album. touring this summer. omg. i'm smiling so big. anyway. so this summer, mark posted something on his blog that gave me hope. it gave everyone hope. here is a part of it: "in the midst of everything else that has happened lately, tom, travis, and i have all spoken together. first through a number of phone calls, and then a couple of weeks ago we all hung out for a few hours. they've all been great, very positive conversations. we're just reconnecting as friends after four years of not talking. it's a good thing. obviously the first question for a lot of people will be 'does this mean a blink-182 reunion?' the answer is none of us know. we haven't talked about it at all. right now it's just good for the three of us to see one another, reconnect, and let the past be the past. the events of the past two months supersede everything that happened before. life is too short." i read this over and over again and couldn't have been more happy. just look where they are now. about 4 days ago, there was an angels and airwaves chatroom in which a member of AAA told fans that tom was going back to blink 182, and that they were coming out with a new album. i couldn't believe it. no one could. all these events lead up to yesterday night. they appeared on stage together for the first time in 4 years for the grammy's. and for the greatest reason i could ever think of. they annouced that they were back. blink one eighty fucking two. they updated their website and got new merch. they also said this: "Hi. We're blink-182. This past week there’ve been a lot of questions about the current status of the band, and we wanted you to hear it straight from us. To put it simply, We're back. We mean, really back. Picking up where we left off and then some. In the studio writing and recording a new album. Preparing to tour the world yet again. Friendships reformed. 17 years deep in our legacy. Summer 2009. Thanks and get ready..." i seriously cannot wait. this is what i have been waiting for. for 4 years. let a new legacy begin.

39.

so today went as expected. bad moods. oh well. i finished my homework early so i was relieved. took a long nap because i hated the world. now i'm watching troy, BRAD PITT HAAAAY. best man alive. OKAY DON'T FEEL LIKE WRITING. bye!

38.

so tonight was pretty fun. this morning wasn't. let's start from the beginging. i woke up at 10, did whatever, watched tv, did half of my homework and whatever. then my mom made me clean pm everything. i was done at like, 5, and then i showered and got ready. i went to ihop with katrina, natalie, alejandro and matt. katrina and nat pictured above. it was a lot of fun but i felt distant. it wasn't their faults, it was mine. i was worried. i can't exactly say here as per people may read this and be offended. so i'll keep that to myself. i don't know why i'm freaking out about this. it's only one night. things like this, i swore wouldn't get to me. that was one of my new year's resolutions. i've been really good about it. but everyone gets this way sometimes. i'm not exactly jealous. i don't know how to describe it. all i know is that i want to cry. it feels like everyone is cutting me out of their life. i don't deserve to feel like this and they don't deserve to be treated badly. it's no one's fault but my own. but it's just not fair. i need help just like everybody else. "when you're down, just remember that i love you!" is not always enough. i don't want to seem selfish and give off the attitude that i "deserve more." because you have your lives, too. it just feels shitty. i don't know why. don't ask me to explain it. i'm having a fight with myself in my head right now about how i feel. i just don't know. this is the downside to me. i'm so confusing, i don't know what i'm feeling, let alone how to express it. and then i just go on rants like i am. i don't know. i really just don't know anymore. tomorrow is sunday and i hate sundays. so maybe it won't be better. maybe it will. who knows. we'll see. xo.

37.

this is exactly how i feel today. it's really cold and all i want to do is sleep. i already took a nap when i came home (: i'm going to in the spotlight with laura later. excited. i probably won't end up doing anything after that. oh well. it's the weekend (: goodbyeee.

36.

so, i fit in my dryer. who knew?

35.

i love the skies after it snows. especially at this time. dnw snow, though. i miss when i was little and the word "snow" meant something amazing. when i didn't care about getting wet and being cold, all i cared about was someone pulling me on a sled and having snowball fights with my brother. and then, after a couple hours, i would come inside and my mom would have hot coco waiting. those were the days :'). anyway. idk why but i have a good feeling about the rest of today. it's weird because that usually doesn't happen. i haven't finished all my homework, hsajhkghs. still have bio and global. oh well. i'll feel even better after i do it. and my happy music right now is "when the world comes down" by the all american rejects and "skip school start fights" by hit the lights. dw, dw. loveeeeeee. okayokay. hope this evening goes well like i feel it will. xo.

edit. tonight didn't go as planned. i mean, it wasn't good. whatever. nick santino and his taylor swift cover is making life better. off to sleep, byenow.

34.

my life isn't too exciting. school was hell, as always. my school sucks and we never have early releases / snow days. nothing. never. oh well. i plan to do my english and global homework, and then go to sleep until whenever. i'm liking this napping buisness. i'll probably end up writing later. goodbye.

33.

this is my brother, mike. i'm surprised he hasn't been in more posts, seeing as he's a big part of my life. no, we're not typical brother and sister. we don't fight (that much....) no but seriously, i don't know what i would do if i didn't have him. everyone tells us we are the cutest siblings ever. (pm true.) hanging out with him is the best, especially when we go on 3am runs to taco bell or 7-11. i'm so bored when he's not home, like right now... oh well. i'm really tired and i want a nap. maybe i will when i finish my science homework! hehe. okayokay that's it for today. ps; MIKE, don't yell at me for putting your picture on here, you ass (:

32.

hello february, and hello best friends (minus tracy, of course.) so basically, last night was epic, as every night spent with these girls is. we made a video dancing to "when i grow up" by the pussycat dolls.... ? just because. we're pretty amazing. we literally sat in my kitchen and talked for like, 3 or 4 hours. we seriously looked at the clock and it was 4:30am. we got to sleep around 5:30am. today was pm boring. all i did was eat and sleep. i won't be able to sleep tonight lmfao. oh well. maybe i do want to go back to school tomorrow. i need routine again. that is all... until next timeeeeee, lovecatherine.

edit. i just remembered that my favorite person in the world from my favorite (one-man) band starts recording his new album tomorrow. bryce, the best of luck. i'm so excited for you. "on dark and stormy days, somewhere it's glowing. and even though i know i'm here, i know i'm going." again, i hope the start of this new journey is absolutely everything you want and more. can't wait.