really great day. but i'm so wiped right now. i'll write later. <3!
edit. so, today was "halloween" in school. even though it's actually saturday. well, woke up really late. still pissed about that. 7:01am to be exact. latest i've even woke up this year, cool? just happened to be on halloween, when i was supposed to be in school 20 minutes early to meet up with natalie and heather. whatev. i was half an hour late to math, lolz. saw paloma and izzy before i got to class, they are brilliant, obv. math was so annoying, i pm missed everything she taught lmao. so during break, me and nat ran to the bathroom, heather met up with us and i drew whiskers on all of us and we put our hats on. sooo yay! we were all max, the little boy from where the wild things are :) cute! 2nd was another math period, basically a study hall. i learned whatever we were doing and then did the homework. she WOULD give us hw over halloween weekend, but i finished it. 3rd was chem, that was interesting. i love kiana for being lady gaga. ahahaha. 4th was interesting, me and heather were in spanish. 5th was amamamazing. ahahah, lunch! paloma is the best clown ever, obv. kristina was qt as hale :)! and jakelyn is.... jakelyn. lmfao. LOVEYOU. jam was super creepy and took pictures of them? oh. LOL. and lunch is when today's picture was taken. many pictures taken ahaha. yaaay. so funny lmfao. seniors rollerskating around, why? i love halloween lmfao. 6th was study halllll with laur! always the best. photo was fucking amazing. me, nat and heather sit next to each other. all period, we took pictures with everyone, and yeppp! 'twas great. 8th was bullshit, we went to the library for global butttt i was with nat, jakes and alyssa! and mulley LOLOLOL. ded. then went to english, wif heatherrr. all the periods were shortened, btw, because we had a shelter drill at the end of 9th period. fun times. ahahah yes, crowded in the aux gym on halloween is a good idea. duh. sooo, anyway. stayed after to go take my math test, which i legitimately failed. the entire back was blank, because i just have no idea. LOL. shit. thennn walked around with kiana, found natalie, got food, and other adventures. someone took my clandestine hoodie that i've had for 2 years and they don't make them anymore? i'm so fucking pissed. hate everyone. who even does that?????? ugh. well, went home around 3:30. chilled, took a nap. then i took a shower at 6 and got ready for alyssa's sweet 16! left at 7, picked up rachelle and tatiana, and then TRIED to find the place. LOL good thing we were an hour late because we got lost..... idek what was going on. the party was so much fun, though. got to see sam, steph, kaleen, kate, greg, bryan, stef, etc etc! euro friends, basicalllllly. we even got a candle! it was qt :)! i miss europe so much, damn. danced a lot and it was really funny, i really love all those people. especially smelly :) anywaysss, party ended at midnight! said bye to everyone, and then drove rachelle and tatiana home. got home at 1am, fun times! i basically loved today. a lot.
ps. i've been meaning to do this for a while, and i want to right now. i don't know why, but it feels like a good time.
1. we've known each other for 3 years this december, and i want you to know i don't regret anything. if we never broke up, who knows what would've happened. i'm glad we still talk sometimes and that you don't hate me for some random reason.
2. i could go on forfuckingever about you. do you realize how in love with you i was? for the longest time? this january is 4 years since we met. you were honestly my best friend. you are the perfect guy. you're sweet, caring, considerate, funny, cute, and i honestly can't think of one bad thing about you. you helped me with literally everything, and i could call you at all hours of the night and you would pick up, no matter what. and you'd never be mad. you only got mad when i didn't call you. you were always there. and there are no words to say how much i miss that. i haven't seen you in a year, 3 months and 18 days. yeah, still remember the date. i remember dates, it's my thing. but the thing is, i haven't talked to you in almost a year, either. usually, things wouldn't be like that. but you hate me for some reason. i really wish you didn't ignore me so maybe i could know why. but i just want you to realize how much i miss you and how much i love you. i'll never forget all the shit you've done for me.
3. another one i could go on forever about. but i won't, because i've wrote about you countless times here. known each other for 2 years, next month. that's crazy. i was so much different in 8th grade. and i needed help, so i thank you for giving that to me. but only for a short period of time. even though we never "dated," you have always been really important to me. some things never change. i'm glad that we still talk, no matter what.
4. we've pretty much forgetten about old times, and it's probably better that way. it might be awkward if we brought it up now. i've known you for almost a year and a half. although last summer wasn't the best, i'm glad we still talk a lot and that we hang out. (:
5. just because we broke up doesn't mean you have to hate me. i meant what i said when i told you i wanted to be friends. don't know what you didn't get. and it was so unnecessary to say the things you did. so, we ended on a bad note, but i don't dislike you. i just don't think it's right that you ignore me or whatever. hopefully that can be fixed soon.
6. you singlehandedly changed my life. and i only met you 8 months ago, tomorrow. weird, right? i loved you so much. hahaha. well, i'm glad we're still friends but i miss you a lot! hope to see you soon.
7. we really had something special. i've known you for 2 years, 3 months and 10 days. like i said, i'm good with dates. well, i was really glad when we started talking again last april. i actually totally forgot about you. and then we started to talk a lot. and i liked you for a while. we didn't see each other enough and that was one of the problems. you always made empty promises and it really sucked, on the other side of them. i still can't get those memories out of my head, yaknow? i still think of you. we haven't talked since the middle of september, but i kind of saw it coming. sometimes i just feel like texting you to tell you i miss you, because i honestly do. but if you cared, we never would've stopped talking. maybe that'll change one day.
8. can't find a way around the way i feel. i don't want to be with someone if i'm not sure how much i actually like them. obviously i care about you. you're not an asshole like you say you are, you're so sweet to me. honestly. but at the moment, i don't like you like you like me. i don't want to have to try to. it should just be there. so i'm not saying it's impossible, i'm just saying that it's not happening right now.
xo.
edit. so, today was "halloween" in school. even though it's actually saturday. well, woke up really late. still pissed about that. 7:01am to be exact. latest i've even woke up this year, cool? just happened to be on halloween, when i was supposed to be in school 20 minutes early to meet up with natalie and heather. whatev. i was half an hour late to math, lolz. saw paloma and izzy before i got to class, they are brilliant, obv. math was so annoying, i pm missed everything she taught lmao. so during break, me and nat ran to the bathroom, heather met up with us and i drew whiskers on all of us and we put our hats on. sooo yay! we were all max, the little boy from where the wild things are :) cute! 2nd was another math period, basically a study hall. i learned whatever we were doing and then did the homework. she WOULD give us hw over halloween weekend, but i finished it. 3rd was chem, that was interesting. i love kiana for being lady gaga. ahahaha. 4th was interesting, me and heather were in spanish. 5th was amamamazing. ahahah, lunch! paloma is the best clown ever, obv. kristina was qt as hale :)! and jakelyn is.... jakelyn. lmfao. LOVEYOU. jam was super creepy and took pictures of them? oh. LOL. and lunch is when today's picture was taken. many pictures taken ahaha. yaaay. so funny lmfao. seniors rollerskating around, why? i love halloween lmfao. 6th was study halllll with laur! always the best. photo was fucking amazing. me, nat and heather sit next to each other. all period, we took pictures with everyone, and yeppp! 'twas great. 8th was bullshit, we went to the library for global butttt i was with nat, jakes and alyssa! and mulley LOLOLOL. ded. then went to english, wif heatherrr. all the periods were shortened, btw, because we had a shelter drill at the end of 9th period. fun times. ahahah yes, crowded in the aux gym on halloween is a good idea. duh. sooo, anyway. stayed after to go take my math test, which i legitimately failed. the entire back was blank, because i just have no idea. LOL. shit. thennn walked around with kiana, found natalie, got food, and other adventures. someone took my clandestine hoodie that i've had for 2 years and they don't make them anymore? i'm so fucking pissed. hate everyone. who even does that?????? ugh. well, went home around 3:30. chilled, took a nap. then i took a shower at 6 and got ready for alyssa's sweet 16! left at 7, picked up rachelle and tatiana, and then TRIED to find the place. LOL good thing we were an hour late because we got lost..... idek what was going on. the party was so much fun, though. got to see sam, steph, kaleen, kate, greg, bryan, stef, etc etc! euro friends, basicalllllly. we even got a candle! it was qt :)! i miss europe so much, damn. danced a lot and it was really funny, i really love all those people. especially smelly :) anywaysss, party ended at midnight! said bye to everyone, and then drove rachelle and tatiana home. got home at 1am, fun times! i basically loved today. a lot.
ps. i've been meaning to do this for a while, and i want to right now. i don't know why, but it feels like a good time.
1. we've known each other for 3 years this december, and i want you to know i don't regret anything. if we never broke up, who knows what would've happened. i'm glad we still talk sometimes and that you don't hate me for some random reason.
2. i could go on forfuckingever about you. do you realize how in love with you i was? for the longest time? this january is 4 years since we met. you were honestly my best friend. you are the perfect guy. you're sweet, caring, considerate, funny, cute, and i honestly can't think of one bad thing about you. you helped me with literally everything, and i could call you at all hours of the night and you would pick up, no matter what. and you'd never be mad. you only got mad when i didn't call you. you were always there. and there are no words to say how much i miss that. i haven't seen you in a year, 3 months and 18 days. yeah, still remember the date. i remember dates, it's my thing. but the thing is, i haven't talked to you in almost a year, either. usually, things wouldn't be like that. but you hate me for some reason. i really wish you didn't ignore me so maybe i could know why. but i just want you to realize how much i miss you and how much i love you. i'll never forget all the shit you've done for me.
3. another one i could go on forever about. but i won't, because i've wrote about you countless times here. known each other for 2 years, next month. that's crazy. i was so much different in 8th grade. and i needed help, so i thank you for giving that to me. but only for a short period of time. even though we never "dated," you have always been really important to me. some things never change. i'm glad that we still talk, no matter what.
4. we've pretty much forgetten about old times, and it's probably better that way. it might be awkward if we brought it up now. i've known you for almost a year and a half. although last summer wasn't the best, i'm glad we still talk a lot and that we hang out. (:
5. just because we broke up doesn't mean you have to hate me. i meant what i said when i told you i wanted to be friends. don't know what you didn't get. and it was so unnecessary to say the things you did. so, we ended on a bad note, but i don't dislike you. i just don't think it's right that you ignore me or whatever. hopefully that can be fixed soon.
6. you singlehandedly changed my life. and i only met you 8 months ago, tomorrow. weird, right? i loved you so much. hahaha. well, i'm glad we're still friends but i miss you a lot! hope to see you soon.
7. we really had something special. i've known you for 2 years, 3 months and 10 days. like i said, i'm good with dates. well, i was really glad when we started talking again last april. i actually totally forgot about you. and then we started to talk a lot. and i liked you for a while. we didn't see each other enough and that was one of the problems. you always made empty promises and it really sucked, on the other side of them. i still can't get those memories out of my head, yaknow? i still think of you. we haven't talked since the middle of september, but i kind of saw it coming. sometimes i just feel like texting you to tell you i miss you, because i honestly do. but if you cared, we never would've stopped talking. maybe that'll change one day.
8. can't find a way around the way i feel. i don't want to be with someone if i'm not sure how much i actually like them. obviously i care about you. you're not an asshole like you say you are, you're so sweet to me. honestly. but at the moment, i don't like you like you like me. i don't want to have to try to. it should just be there. so i'm not saying it's impossible, i'm just saying that it's not happening right now.
xo.
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