hahahaha today was interesting. woke up kinda late because i stayed up until 4am. well. did the usual, showered and got ready and whatnot. laura walked ovahhhh at some point and i met her half way. we were on the phone and i saw the biggest caterpillar of my life. we came back and it was still there. we got a piece of tree and picked it up and brought it back to my house... why? i don't know. lmfao. showed my brodderrrr. and we named him jayjay :) we left him outside for a little and ate and watched jumanji, best movie ever. when we went back outside, he was gone :( jerk. lmfao i hate us. after that, we walked to tropical smoothie, wooooo. always great, duh. love my best friend. ps, tor i miss you! anywayzzzz, we walked back and then laura walked striaght home while mike and jess picked me up to go the mall. bought stuff for mommeh's birfday on wednesday, hellz yeahhh. got home around 9pm, and now i'm b0redddd dude. this summer is ending way too soon :(.
edit. i don't know why i forgot to write about this because it's been on my mind all day. i don't appreciate being ignored. and even if you're just busy, i at least deserve some sort of response. that was something i've been meaning to say for a while. so now, i just feel like the situation was worsened. don't know why. i hate mixed signals. and it's kind of bothering me. i'd love for you to just talk to me and change my mind. but at this point i have no idea what to do. it's your move.
edit 2. i hate feeling so alone. i have so much in my life so why is there still something missing? i just need something, and i can't figure out what. that's the worst part. i really don't even know what's wrong with me. crying right now, why? i honestly have no one to talk to, that's why i'm here. well, i do have someone to talk to. but i feel so bothersome. what the fuck is wrong with me. i always feel like that. um. holy shit, i don't even know what to say anymore. bye. ugh.
edit. i don't know why i forgot to write about this because it's been on my mind all day. i don't appreciate being ignored. and even if you're just busy, i at least deserve some sort of response. that was something i've been meaning to say for a while. so now, i just feel like the situation was worsened. don't know why. i hate mixed signals. and it's kind of bothering me. i'd love for you to just talk to me and change my mind. but at this point i have no idea what to do. it's your move.
edit 2. i hate feeling so alone. i have so much in my life so why is there still something missing? i just need something, and i can't figure out what. that's the worst part. i really don't even know what's wrong with me. crying right now, why? i honestly have no one to talk to, that's why i'm here. well, i do have someone to talk to. but i feel so bothersome. what the fuck is wrong with me. i always feel like that. um. holy shit, i don't even know what to say anymore. bye. ugh.
1 comment:
believe me when i say you aren't the only one who feels this way. i feel this way about 95% of the time. i have moved back to texas because i basically tried something and failed and now i'm still here living with my parents at a crappy job that i hate with all my friends going to school and my sister's have families of their own and some of my days are spent with them but its like all the people i talk to are out of state and they just seem sooo far away no matter how close i am with them. so i have really bad days that i stay at home and lay under my covers and cry and miss my friends and the days that went by easily with laughter and fun. then i have days like yesterday when i made the choice to take a step forward and try a new direction i'm moving out of state with a friend i have lots of stuff to do before i go ,and i know my family will be pissed about it but i'm really excited one chapter ends and another begins. i know you don't know me but hopefully this helps. take care.
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