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i hate having shitty pictures. camera lens still isn't fixed, that's cool. literally, all i did today was go and get pizza for dinner with my mom. my life is so fucking boring. not to mention, you. i know i'm overreacting but really. you obviously know i wanted to talk to you. ignoring me is cool. i mean, you probably don't think much of it, but it makes me feel like shit. going from routine to that just sucks. i don't want to have certain expectations because i know i'll be disappointed at some point. like today. and like a million other days, in the past and in the future. i just like some reassurance once in a while. like, we were gunna hang out this week. well, that won't happen if we never plan it. or even talk. this is obviously something better than friendship. you know i like you. well, maybe not but it sure is damn obvious. and if you're just playing around then i really don't appreciate it. idk. i would just like to know, for once, that someone is serious like i am. talked about dumb shit with my dad today, made me want to die, but i realized something. i'm not following the rules. what my parents believe. i'll keep quiet about that but i will say that i deserve to be happy. to have someone to make me happy. your screen name just popped up. i sighed instead of smiling. fix that. this really won't make sense to anyone but me. i came here intending to write 2 sentences. love rants? anyway. excited for later this week. hopefully my life gets more interesting? yeah, idk. peace.