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so, i'll pretty much go over this entire amazing day now. hmmm. so, i woke up around 10:30am. still kinda upset about last night but i guess i got over it a bit. basically watched tv and went on the computer until 2pm. then i showered and started to get ready. so fucking excited. the scene aesthetic, holy shit. i cannot. anyway. my mom got home at exactly 4 and we left. stopped at the bank and then drove to nyc. greatest city in the world. took about an hour and got there at 5. as soon as my mom dropped me off, i saw law, tor and sam walking out of chipotle! woooo. love them so much. anyway, we went into duane reade and back to chipotle, basically just killing time. it was 5 minutes to 6pm when we got online. jess and katie were right next to us. waited for a little while, and then they opened doors. wooooo! ran in and got into the crowd with law, while sam and tor sat in the movie theater seats. i love blender theater btw. law and i were second row, but we wanted barricade. i left for a second and bought a tsa shirt and bracelet. tor and law also bought the bracelet, ilfpogggg :)! mwahaha. anyway. show started, and tyler williams came on. he was so qt! one thing, though. there was this OBNOXIOUS kid behind us, who talked really loud and complained about everyone on stage. like, if you don't like the band.... why are you in the front. like LOL does that make any sense? well, everyone was getting pissed off because of him and he was told to shut up more than once. he was just a douche about it. whatever, tried to enjoy it anyway. after tyler was stephen jerzak. pretty good. tsa did pick good bands to tour with :) oh, ALSO. right after stephen, the really nice girls in front of us on barricade said that they were there for stephen and knew we were there for tsa. they left there barricade spot and let law and i in. holy shit, it was absolutely perfect. barricade, right at the center of the stage. we pretty much fucking died. it definitely was a lot less hot, which is always a good thing. after that, the ready set came on. LOL, is all i have to say. omg. hahahaha law. "OMG JORDANNNNNNNNNNN!" oh, basically nik's twin. hahahah. anyway. after the ready set was the color fred. i really love that man. i bet half the people didn't know he was from taking back sunday until he said it but whatever. his set was really, really good. he is so talented. right after he walked off, i started to die. the scene aesthetic, next. omg, ded. well, andrew and eric came out and set up, and i was getting so anxious and excited. the lights went dark and i thought i was gunna die. so great. they opened with come what may, holy shittt. great. they played that, heavy lies the crown, humans, the alamo is no place for dancing, the man i am, love story cover, if you're a bird, love through postcards, walk this town, and closed with beauty in the breakdown. first of all..... love through postcards. holy shit. i had no idea they were gunna play that. one of my favorite songs and i almost dieddddddd. also. i love my best friends more than anything. because. right before tsa played the man i am, my favorite song... sam, law and tor were yelling at andrew to look at his hand. he did and then he said; "it's our friend kiddy's birthday today, and this song is dedicated to her." um. i. love. my. life. they were with him at the prehang in central park and asked him to do that. ummm, could i ask for better people in my life? fucking love. i was bawling. idk, favorite song and everything just combined was fucking amazing. more than i could ever ask for. it was the first time officially seeing the scene aesthetic, and holy shit. even better than i imagined it would be. anyway, after the show ended, talked to andrew a bit and he was like, "YOU'RE KIDDY!" hahaha. so qt. security started kicking us out so we walked out of blender and around the corner to tsa's van. after a little while, andy and andrew came out and started talking to people. so awesome. andrew was basically amazing. he was giving us rainbow twizzlers and being retarded. we took pictures and whatnot, he signed my printed picture from last september and wrote happy b-day! didn't even ask him toooo haha. then, he was like "is the man i am your favorite song?" and i was like "yessss!" and he's like "aww, that's cute." haha. then i started talking to him about when we saw danger radio in april, and him and eric played acoustic in the trailer after the show. he remembered that law and i requested the man i am and that we knew the words. it's an awesome feeling to be remembered. i love hanging out with him, it's always so funny. took a million group pictures hahaha. so cute. at some point, someone gave him this gun thing and a potato to make bullets out of? idek but he was shooting everyone. so funny. during a group picture, sam stole it and shot him in the face HAHAHA awww. eric came over eventually and he signed the picture of us from bamboozle. he said it was an awesome idea :) anyway, it was getting pretty late and it was down to just me, law, tor, sam, andrew, andy, taylor, stella, and a couple other people with the bands. but really, the only ~fans~ there were us. love that stuff. we said bye to everyone and gave hugs. i love every second in the company of these people. got in the car, dropped sam off at penn, and then drove around to look for food. at some point, it turned to midnight, and my birthday had officially started. happy birthday was sung in the car, duh. we ended up getting mcdonalds, haaaaa. got home around 1am. my brother surprised me with a cake, which was delish. felt important and loved, always good feelings. couldn't ask for a better way to start my birthday. love tonight. xo.

I love your smile and your laugh, and that grin you sometimes do. You amaze me every day with something new. If I made a list of things I love about you, girl, it would spread from Madagascar to Peru. Love Through Postcards, TSA.

We keep adding to this list of things we'll someday do. Have a home, a dog, maybe a kid or two. There's no one else that I could dream of having that life with, I've waited all my life, I'm glad that I found you. Some people just don't understand how much you truly mean to me, I don't mind, that's quite irrelevant you see. What matters most is that we're here against all of the odds, it's living proof that all these things were meant to be. Love Through Postcards, TSA.