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hmm, well. today was interesting. woke up at the usual time and showered. but i was in the weirdest mood and decided to straighten my hair ..... for the first time since april 1st. whut de shet. it was epic. it looked very qt until it decided to flip. but, anyway. i went to target with my mom and grandma and did more shopping for europe. damn, i'm lucky. this is pretty much once in a lifetime. i mean, probably. i would love to go back some day, though. but holy shit, 6 days. anyway. shopping was kinda frustrating because my mom always buys unnecessary things that i don't want and won't use. i always put up a fight and she just pisses me off. i get past it though. i mean, she is buying me shit for my trip. i really can't ask for more. so i laid off and she got what she thought was good. she'll probably be right in the end, anyway... she usually is. after target we stopped at cvs and then went home. it was around 6:30. i called david because he wanted to chill. he was eating dinner at gina's so he said he'd pick me up when he was done. i started a book i got a couple days ago, "before i die" and it's mad good so far. i really love reading so much and i should start doing it more again. i remember last summer, gina and i would walk to borders by target and just sit in there and read for hours. and we'd sit in her basement and have reading parties. we really loved it and i miss it! hmmshit, gotta start again. well, anyway. david picked me up and we went to gina's and andrew was there! him and gina were sew qt, dw them together. and i haven't seen him since school ended and i love him so much :) played rockband with david and had a srs talk. i cried but he shouldn't feel bad because no one has ever put it the way he has and i needed it. i really did. i mean, it might not have impacted me yet but it will. i can't just forget the things he said to me. i won't. and i'm planning to take action. even if it hurts me. i mean... i want to be free, don't i? i don't want this pain anymore. i can't keep doing this to myself. well zen. after that, we all chilled and then decided to get ice cream. mmmm, 31 degrees below with oreos from baskin robins. pretty much in love. we went to silo and then andrew had to leave. we stayed on the playground for a little while and then i had to go home, too. i plan on reading some of the book tonight, and whatnot. this is the last night i won't have my room, booyah. i can't believe i'm leaving for 3 weeks. shitman, i better get packin.