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oh, my god. i love everything. let's start from the beginning. so, i wake up and look at the clock. good thing it's 8:27am? LOL about that. so i got ready and went into school at 9:45, right before 4th period. fun times. actually really glad for that, because if not, i probably would've died. i was so dead in school, from last night. but oh well. at the end of 5th period, i get up to leave and see a lucky penny on the floor. oh, i love life. fast forward. bell rings and school ends. go to locker and then run home. start getting ready and tor comes! had to bring my homework with me in the car... cool? LOL not like i did it. so we left around 3. bullshitted my math homework, and then decided not to do anymore. don't know why i didn't bring my ipod with me? oh lifeee. anyway. took naps, woke up in nyc at sunset, it was beautiful. took a million pictures. back to sleep. it took way longer to get to starland than usual, for some reason. but we got there at around 6. doors were at 6:30! decided not to wear our hoodies, since doors were soon. but that half hour was tortureee. saw some of ftsk coming on and off their bus, dw! went in at 6:30 and went to the bathroom, duh. talked to ziggy and tara at merch for a while. wandered around, kelsey and the chaos played LOL, and then down with webster. by that time, sammy, jess, gina and christine were there. enjoyed down with webster, last show for us :( awww. kap, you are adorable. after that, tor and i walked over to the merch and found nate! talked to him for a good 10 minutes, adorable. so he used to sit in front of his locker for an hour before school started, just because he woke up to take a shower before his brother...? LOL IDK. but that was so cute. told him we were gunna go watch my favorite highway when they came on, and he said he was going to, too, so we walked with him! =] life. mfh, amazing as always. then sing it loud. probably the best performance out of all 3. i guess i was more into it, too. (: dw! so, bryce is about to go on. for the third time this week. and i'm kind of dying. before he actually goes onstage tor and i see him side stage, i probably left a mark on her arm from grabbing it so hard. i love you, boy. brycebryce, amazing as always. LOL he had an alfalfa, and it was probably the funniest thing of my life. "i gotta accentuate the alfalfa..." LMFAO love. anyway, maps was absolutely amazing, i got closer than the other 2 shows. hills and valleys, confetti, you gotta believe, i just love this. i had to cry during so, in this hour. i could not think of a better way to end his live shows than this. ahhhhh. i can't. so, he finishes and says bye. walks off and there are people waiting side stage. i saw him go over to them so i went over there. got out my silver sharpie and when he came over to me, he looked up and smiled. ded. asked him to sign my phone, which is definitely the best idea i've ever had. love my life. asked him if he'd be out later, and he said probably. he apologized because he said security was gunna yell at him if he didn't leave, but it's okayyy. i appreciate every moment he spends with fans. went to merch and talked to tara. waited for ftsk to come onnn. DED. cookie wore tor's shoes on stage again, sooo adorable. but tonight, you could actually really tell he was sick. it was so sad to watch, i felt so bad. he left out verses, let austin and caleb sing a lot, and you could just tell that his usual energy just wasn't all there. i hope you feel better bby. don't push yourself. despite that, ftsk was still amazing. as woah oh ended, tor and i ran out to meet ftsk as they came off stage. it was freeeezing. waited around for a long time, got hoodies from the car. didn't look like bryce was coming out :( stood by ftsk's trailer and caleb came over to us. acting like a cat? LOL IDK, it was so adorable. gave me and tor hugs. love you! waited for bryce for maybe 10 more minutes, but i gave up. but seriously, i'm so fine with that. it was freezing outside and it was 11:30. i totally understand. besides, i couldn't ask for a better week with him. i really couldn't. i got everything i wanted. left for the long ride home. got home around 1:30, and amanda was there waiting for tor. so ded. for so many reasons. i am in love with the life that i lead. i have so many people to thank for making this week better than i could ever imagine. i'm so grateful for everything that has been given to me. i really appreciate it. stephen bryce avary, you couldn't mean more to me. the past 2+ years have been so amazing. thank you for being an amazing human being. you possess so much talent, it's mindblowing and i can honestly say you're the greatest person i've ever known. that note i wrote you could never say enough, and you know that. i miss you already. have fun on the rest of the cheap date tour, and i'm so beyond excited for of men and angels. i love you so much, and thank you. i've said it a million times this week, i just fucking love my life. xo.