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it feels like these days are going really fast. it's kind of good and bad at the same time. but anyway. i'm pretty much the only one who understands why this is my picture. laur might, too. but yeah. i can't believe i'm feeling like this right now. i don't know where to start. when i first heard about it, i didn't really even think because we hadn't been talking in a while. then we started again, and i remembered how fucking awesome you really are. and we talked about that night. i was so glad that i got your side, instead of everyone else's. i know who you truly are, and i'll never judge you. but it breaks my heart that one night, one decision, maybe only one minute, changed your life. i wish you could go back and think first. hearing about it makes me so upset. i try not to cry when i see that picture. it's just not fair. and it's so weird, when i read about it and shit, it becomes so real. that this is you and this is what you did. i know such a different person. i honestly wish you the best. i hope you're okay in the future, and hopefully we'll talk again when you have time. love you. today was okay, i guess. idk. idk idk idk. i don't feel like writing about that. i just want to rant forever. i have to write this damn paper, i've been procrastinating. and if you haven't realized, you're hurting me this very second. FUCK THIS. i don't care anymore.

edit. sorry about that. idk, i just got upset. because of you. obviously i care a lot if you can say one thing, and that happens. how could you not believe me? yeah, so, this might not work. but i'm willing to try if you are. i actually might be looking forward to tomorrow. xo.