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homework? oh, okay. idk. and i hate shitty quality. oh well. today was just, really weird. this afternoon, was interesting. fun times. i enjoy the feeling you give me, but is this for real? i really don't think so. but who knows. i do like you, at least know that. well, anyway. the rest of my day kind of sucked i guess. i don't really know how to explain it. just a weird mood. i was talking to the weirdest people. and it made me realize something about myself, something i really don't like. don't know how to explain that either. also, right now i feel really unaccomplished and stressed, fuckkkkkkkk. it feels like last year. fuck fuck fuck. things cannot get like this again. no way is that happening. oh also. i know you'll probably read this and you'll probably know it's you (plural). but whatev, i want to get this out. you know we've been distant lately. we used to be inseparable. the closest anyone could ever be. you were the only reason i survived last year. because we were all so close. it got me through everything, if you haven't realized that. and now, this year is great, but it's not the same. it's not like we're falling apart and nothing's okay but i'd give anything for it to be like last year. as far as we are concerned. why am i crying right now. we all have other friends and of course i completely accept that, i wouldn't have it any other way, but i feel like we don't make enough time for each other anymore. myself included. i don't know what to write anymore. the reason i didn't talk to you directly is because i don't want to unnecessarily start anything, like i did last time. just know that i love you both to death, so much more than you know and i miss you. xo.