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i've given up trying. you are the only thing that wakes me up in the morning.

edit. i don't even know how to say what i'm feeling right now. like honestly, i'm so confused. i feel like everything is coming down at once. numerous things are starting conflicts with people i never intended to hurt. i just wish everything would go away. i don't know anymore. i feel like every action i make and word i speak goes unheard and unanswered. what does it even matter? i don't know where i'm headed and the future frustrates me so much. like, i believe in fate, and that everything happens for a reason, yaknow? but why is this happening? why have things played out like this? i honestly don't see us going anywhere and right now, it's causing more problems than i expected. 1. honestly? what are you trying to do? you barely even know him. everyone agrees with me anyway. it pisses me off that you continue with your actions, fully aware of me and my feelings. what are you, ignoring them? some friend you are. 2. i don't get you. you're so weird to me sometimes and i don't know why because i love you to death. you gotta open up to me. if there's one thing i hate more than anything else, it's when people talk to other people about me instead of talking to me. if something's bothering you, come to me. i don't understand what you're going through. but it's only because you won't tell me. or anyone for that matter. anyway. tonight, i just feel really emotional. my heart is full of love. and i don't know what to do.