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this is how you make me feel. i wonder if you ever think about me.

edit. it's crazy how much i love you.

edit 2. shit. i've never been one to hate school. i've always tried hard and it's paid off. it mattered a lot to me. but this year is so much different. i'm honestly counting down the days until i can leave this hellhole called commack high school. i've never dreaded going to school as much as i do this year. i can honestly say there's no reason to wake up in the morning and drag myself there. it just fucking sucks. i'm starting to give up. i don't care about school work. all i do is text and sleep. and then the moment i get home, i'm so fucking stressed it's insane. but when i try to do my work, i can't concentrate. i've just lost all interest in this. and i don't know what to do. i know i need to do well in school to go to college, but honestly. it's not worth all the shit i'm putting myself through. fuck this. 7 more weeks of this shit. hello summer 09. i need you more than anything. ps. a junior in my school hung himself tonight. my heart goes out to his family and friends. i wish i could've known you. life is too short. rest in peace.