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i'm super lame, but whatever. today was another good day, but it was boring. no use in repeating myself, it was basically like yesterday. i'm gunna go back to reading now. can my computer be fixed soon? please? ughhhhhh.

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today really wasn't an eventful day. school was good, like always. it's my best friend's birthday :) happy birfday dalawww, i love you! when i got home i did homework, talked to laur on the phone, went on a bike ride, read more. that's basically it. i'm definitely going to sleep early tonight. in today's picture, the book on the left is the one i've finished. almost done with the one in the middle. 3 more to go. i still love reading. ha :). anyway, i've decided that after i finish my 365, i'm moving my blog to tumblr. i've been thinking about it for a while, but i really can't bring myself to disrupt this blog, and this goal, at the moment. less than 100 days to go. can the year really be ending that fast?

ps. i remember in the beginning when i was proud of making it to one week without missing a day. who would've thought i'd come this far?

271.

another great day to end this amazing, amazing weekend. ohman. woke up and went for a bike ride. of course, HA. got home, showered, and cleaned a bit. was gunna go into the city but that didn't work out, it was getting late and stores would probably be closed for the jewish holiday. so my mom and i ended up going to roosevelt field mall, which turned out to be a lot of fun. it's actually fun spending time with her sometimes. we looked in bloomingdales, macy's, and nodstrom for sweet 16 dresses. meh. didn't even try anything on. so we decided to just walk around the mall. went to american apparel and got an amazing hoodie and shirt. ahhhh love that store. walked around a lot, eventually got pizza. today's picture was the candy stand below us in the mall while we were eating. it looked sooo good but we can't eat that stuff anymore hahaha. we walked around more, went to fye, and then went to urban outfitters and forever 21. bought cute stuff in forever 21 of course. so excited! i love new clothes :). anyway, left around 6. i got home and took more pictures for my photo project, which i think came out really well. i'm excited to show raeihle. finally got around to watching the dvd's for the potential DJ's for my party. went with ~party's alive~ because they seem to be the best. haaa. did more party stuff, etc, etc. fun times. read a lot today, too. oh, i forgot to mention! yesterday i went to the library and took out like, 6 books. last year, i had NO time to read for fun, but this year i actually do. i already finished one of them ahahah. my life. well, i think i'm gunna go start another book. maybe eat something. my life is so exciting. also; i actually don't dread going to school anymore. i could fucking get used to this. xo.

270.

today was a really good day. don't have my resizing program because i'm on my dad's computer. this kinda sucks. but anyway. went to sammy&jake's for sammy's birthday party tonight. so much fun, non-stop laughing. these are my 4 best friends in the world. l-r: jakelyn, tor, laura, kristina. i never want to lose them. and i could never say how much they mean to me. <3.

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another fucking amazing day. woke up at 9:45 and decided to go on another bike ride. another half an hour. i ended up on clay pitts and i don't know how HAHAHA. but it was fun. after that, i came home and showered. at 12, my mom and i left on our journey to look for sweet 16 dresses. first was estelle's in farmingdale. they didn't really have a lot of dresses, but they had this red one which was gorgeous. red is the color i want, btw. i tried that on and i love it. also tried on a really nice greenish one. but the red is my favorite. after that, we went to pzaz in centereach. they had a lot more dresses for sweet 16s. i started looking for style, not color. i tried on this bright blue one that was definitely my favorite style out of every single one i tried on. holy shit, it was amazing. but it doesn't come in red :(. i'll see what happens, though. after pzaz, we drove all the way to some random town half an hour away, lynbrook. store there was called sugarplum. they really didn't have anything i liked but i tried on this one red dress. whutev. i'm just so excited for my party. i'm glad i'm planning everything so early because i can order a dress and don't have to worry about it not getting here in time. cause it takes a couple months. anyway, i got back home around 5:30. got ready again and then left at 6 to go to sam's house in wantagh! ahhh, eurofriends :). got there at 6:30 and it was seriously absolutely hilarious from the start. we had pizza and made fun of sam's deer and took a million pictures. eventually, everyone was there and it was me, sam, steph, kaleen, kate, nick, greg, rachelle, tatianna, stefane, alyssa, bryan, cristiana and rebecca. oh and of course, i can't forget tiffany! hahahaha. tatianna is holding her in the picture. we all decided to take a field trip to rita's where maybe 2 people got something, HAHA. but it was so much fun. singing and dancing with cristiana. we got back to the house and talked forever, had more food, basically, it was amazing. so funny hahaha. people started leaving around 11. we went inside at 11:30ish and talked and made fun of each other. i left at 12:30, so sad! i really need to see those kids more, wish they didn't live in a million different towns! anywayyy, i'm tired now. btw, my computer's broken so i'm doing this on my dad's. LOL, awkward? cooool. this weekend has been fucking amazing so far, and tomorrow will be good too. i love my life. xo.

268.

ahahaha, today was fucking great. school was awesome, and i'm glad i can finally say that. periods were 25 minutes each, which was lovely. pep rally at the end of the day, which was stupid but at least we got out of class, and i sat with best friends. it was funny to make fun of anyway. after that, i went home and blahblahblah. went on a bike ride? so weird. haven't done that in years. i was bored and decided i might as well get some exercise, yaknow? so i rode around for half an hour and then laur called me. i told her i was biking and she said to come to her house. ahahah. went there, we ate, and then laur got her bike and we put air in our tires. much better. rode around her neighborhood for a little and then i went home. changed and whatever. laur walked over maybe 2 hours later? asked my dad to drive me to paloma's! so we get there and it's me, law, loma, izzy, steph, molly and rachel. so. much. fun. we ordered domino's and had a million dance parties. today's picture is an action shot of that, HAHAHA. mucho fun. the food came and he effin devoured it. basically just a really good night overall. i love loma's room hahaaa. anyway, after all our dance parties, we went inside and watched trailers for the most random movies. my dad picked laur and i up around 11 and laur went home. when i got home, i walked up the stairs, into my room and went to sleep. i was so tired, lmfao. such a good fucking day :) xo.

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hahahahahahahaha. oh, a*teens. photo was fucking great today. basically, blast from ze past and i've listened to them a lot today HAHAHA. my life. i seriously used to be OBSESSED with them. so funny. so uhhhh, today was ariiight. school's pretty much good every day. i love being a bitch. ha :). anyway, my day wasn't really that important. i need to say a few things. 1. thank you for being such a wonderful new friend. i needed that. 2. uhhhhh. don't know what to say to you right now. kinda speechless. 3. i don't want to wait for you anymore. it's not like i haven't tried. there's literally zero effort on your part. we're drifting, and maybe that's what you want. i could never know. i'm hoping you're just busy. eh. i don't want to let this bring me down more than it already has. do you know how long i went without crying? damn. i feel like i have more to say, but i won't. 4. your life is so pathetic, i'm not even gunna waste my time writing about you further than this sentence. 5. i don't feel bad when i make fun of you. call me heartless, i don't give a fuck. 6. excuse me, don't give me a fucking attitude just because you're pissy. thanks. 7. you're life is wonderful right now, so keep it that way. don't let the little things bring you down. um, okay. i think i'm done. i'll write later if anything happens. doubt it. love.

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math is basically fucking chinese to me. honestly. lost again. whateverrr. did all my homework already.. again. so bored. school was goooood, yeah. except gym. fuck that class. took off my bryce avary bracelet for the first time in a year :(. anyway, why the fuck are you MIA lately? seriously, i don't know what to say. at this point it seems like you couldn't care less. uhhh, going out to dinner with mama ah and laur sometime soon. should be a good time. look like shit, but whatever. idk what else to say. hope tonight brings the change i've been wishing for. sigh. xo.

edit. sooo, around 8, my mom got home, we picked up laur, and then went to chili's :) LMFAO so many fucking hilarious moments. our waiter......... LOFL. interesting. don't remember all of them but, "so if a cat chews something and then spits it out, IT'S THROW UP?" ... "no, he wasn't born in 1920." "yeah, he's like dead already." LMFAO omfg. fucking dead. idk, so fucking funny. food was gooood, too. meow. it was a good 2 hours. around 10, we dropped laur off at home and now it's 10:45 and i'm boreddd. talking to david and hatin on stupid people, aka my life. LOL. my life is so good. xo.

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first of all, day 265. only 100 more days left! oh mannn. kso, today was good. it seems like the week goes by really slow though, is it really only tuesday? math was okay today, because i actually fucking understand what's going on. that's the greatest feeling, when everything suddenly clicks. okay, loser moment. but really. anyway. after 3rd period, my day is always better. i seriously love lunch. and 6th-9th is great, not really 8th, but whatever. stayed after for camera club, which was funnnn. love that i'm getting into photography more. sooo, finished all my homework before 6:30, do i have a life? not really lmfao. on the phone with laur now. oh, the picture of course. i made that a little while ago. i don't know how it applies exactly to what i'm thinking about, but it's definitely true as hell. um. idkkk. bored now. wish i could fucking drive, law and i just talked about that. we're both typing right now, LOL. life. i hate this girl. anyway. in a little while, i'm gunna eat and then probably curl my hair again for no reason. um, my life is exciting. xo :)

ps. still trying to comprehend how those words could actually be true.

edit.

clearly what happens when i am bored. (:

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webcam fun today. top pictures are from after school, laur came here for a little. bottom is the first ilfpog oovoo! lmfao, so fucking funny. seriously. my days are so great lately. fuck all that little shit, i don't care anymore. i'm happy, and that's the end of it. i spent less than an hour on all my homework today. granted, i did leave my english textbook in school, so i couldn't do that homework, but still. this is so fucking great. i'm never stressed anymore. school is actually completely awesome this year. the only classes i dread are math and chem. and that's only 3 periods. so whateverrrr. i can deal with that, definitely. sitting here and listening to a rocket to the moon. really good mood. its been like that lately. despite anything. ahhhh. only thing that's bothering me is that we aren't as close as we used to be. i don't know if it's because you started school, have to balance that and work, and everything, but i really don't like it. i miss when you actually had time to sit down and talk to me. spend time and hang out with me. isn't that what we're here for? you've been here the longest for me and no one could ever replace you. i hope you're not as stressed as you seem, and if you are, i want you to talk to me about it. lately, you haven't been the nicest to me. and everyone has those little stages. but i just can't wait for this one to be over. i need you back, i love you a lot and i hope things improve. alsoooo; you'll probably never know this is for you, BUT. you may think you're better than me, but you're not, because i'm happy. at least i'm fucking happy. ha. so, i gotta study for chem at some point tonight.... fun. idk. whatever, it's pretty easy so far. oh! almost forgot. TAI's new EP, lost in pacific time, comes out tomorrow! from what i've heard, it's fucking amazing. buy it. bye! xo.

edit. woah. too much feeling at once. i miss you. a lot. i really hope you're not a douche like everyone else. i've said it before, and i'll say it again. i hope i'm not wasting my time.

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at kristina's house rn, write later :)

edit. today was so much fun, haaaa. did nothing until 5pm. just took some pictures for my photo assignment. it's nice when i don't have homework over the weekends! totally new experience. at 5, laur and mama rizzo picked me up and dropped us off at target. i bought 2 webcams, one for me and one for laur for her birthday! lmfao :D. anyway, after targer, we walked around party city, michael's, and petco. so bored. decided to walk to fairfield and visit caylin. i miss her so much, we don't hang out enough. that was a good 10 minutes. then we decided to walk to kristina's house and visit her! we were there for almost 2 hours. soooo funny. another person i don't hang out with enough. someone i still consider my best friend. lmfao i swear, everything we did was funny. we talked about ~oovooing~ tonight but we didn't =[ mehhh. i love her a lot though! sooo, my father picked us up and dropped law off. went home and did some stuff, then set up my webcam. HAAAA, fun times. left a million videos on people's walls and set up oovoo. talked to law. oovoo kind of hates me though. it was kinda fucked up but seriously, it's gunna be the greatest. Aso now, it's almost 11:30pm. still doing laundry, and still putting together my photo assignment. sleep by midnight, i promise. xo.

edit 2.

helloooo webcam :)!

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waaaa, best friends :). kso, tor came here around 1, i showered and we got ready togetherrr. danced to atl, obv. laur picked us up and mama rizzo drove us to tanger! first was red mango, obv. we were there for....... hours. lmfao. met up with paloma, izzy, brendan, moira, erin and emily. mwahaha so funny. funny children. twas a gooood time! so, didn't have a ride home... LOL. called johnny and he picked us uppp. haaaa. now we're back at my house, gunna go to wendy's to get food soon. meow. bye!

edit. went to wendy's, mmmmm. ate, then went on a walk. half of our usual one because it was damn cold outside. love walking around in the dark with best friends and having those conversations. really gets me thinking. idk. so we got back here, did whatevvv. amanda picked them up around 11:45 because they both didn't feel good =[ feel bettttter! so now, i'm just sitting here, bored and tired. and of course, thinking. over thinking. and being upset. it always happens. i don't know what it is. just this missing feeling. my life is so good and i should not have any complaints. so what the fuck is wrong? what's not there? hold on, i need music. ah. starving your friends, envy on the coast. thinking song. weird, since i've listened to it 3 times since i typed that and haven't written anything. eh. well, i was thinking. i look at other people and can never imagine us like that. plain and simple. why am i wasting my time? :/.

edit 2. since when does william beckett have a child? LOL cool~

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school was nice. i'm pretty sure this will be a great year. went with laura on the late bus to her house. sat around, ate, computer, usual. meow. fun doing nothing, oh best friend. walked around, walked to my house, loma got dropped off! walked around everywhere with them, talked, laughed, ran, got scared, so many adventures. went back to my house eventually. more talking, and picture taking. this should happen more often bbys. lovelovelove. xo.

ps. i only notice you're gone when i'm alone. i miss you.

edit. i love you more than i could ever say. i will never let anything happen to us. that i promise you. love you bestfriend.

260.

hello, i'm in digital photography right now... natalie and heather are to my right. i'm glad blogger works in school, because i'm bored. BUTTAHFINGERS BYEEEEEEE!

edit. today was great as well. i'm convinced this school year will be good. convinced. no homework tonight... WHAT? that hasn't happened since 8th grade. i swear to god. after school was mad fun, too. went home, whatev, met up with laur around 4 and walked around for a bit. funniest shit of my life. "OMG THAT'S NOT HER." along with many other things. LMFAO. we're so fucking retarded and i love it. nothing really since then. took a nap. yaaaay! i love my life rn. oh and, today's picture is random but i really love my shoes. mmmmkay. goodbye :).

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such a mess today. but whatever. jake lent me silicon tunnels, and i kinda love them a lot. yay foh stretched earlobesssss. anyway. today was pretty good. the only part of school that i really can't stand is the first 3 periods. i either have double math, then chem, or math and then double chem. it's so fucking annoying. plus, we had extended homeroom today, and then i had double math, so i was there for a good 2 hours. soooo much fun. i felt so stupid, also, because i don't understand half the shit we're doing. quiz tomorrow, that will totally go over well. nottt. whatev whatev, i suck at math. spanish was okaaay. lunch was funny as always, glad i have the people i do. study hall was boring, bullshitted through my math homework. meh. glad steph's there. 7th is always amazing, i love photography and raeihle and natalie and heather and leah. greatest class. 8th was gooood, too. because i have nat and jakes! made probably the most hilarious poster for global ever created. presenting it tomorrow will be interesting. considering there are farm animals all over it..... LOL. life. english, best way to end the day. went first for summer reading presentations today, no sweat. i actually really like my class. after school, i wandered around with laur, jake, connor and sammy as always. decided to take the late bus to jake/sammy's house just because. sammy had to leave for work at 4 but it was good spending time with them againnn. i walked home at 4:30. haven't really started my homework but i barely have any. did math, no chem, no global, no english. just have to finish a little project for spanish. i actually don't mind school at the moment. stupid people piss me off but i just end up laughing at them and their lives. so entertaining. ahh. love life. xo.

ps. ignoring you is doing me a lot of good. sorry if you don't understand. this is for me. <3

edit. sigh of relief. smiles. loveeee.

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i don't know. don't know what to say or do. don't know why these days have been so bad. i hate being alone. and feeling alone. too much homework today. and not enough you. none of you, actually. i don't get it. i'm starting to give up. i'm so done. ps. thank you TAI. for everything. especially tonight.

I'll help you find your way every moment you're awake. You know I'll stay, even in your dreams. I'll pull the stars down from the heavens to fill your empty skies, I'm yours tonight.

edit. why do you copy me. uhhh. anyway. i totally appreciate being ignored. it really makes me feel good. fucking assholes. i hate everyone. please prove to me that you're worth it.

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click to enlarge. basically, bryce has been tweeting all day about various things. his album, tour, answering people's question, etc. dw :). well anyway. i'm starting to think this year will be a lot better than last year. i like my classes and teachers a lot more. and idk if it's just because i haven't been in school long, but i'm in no way overloaded with work. it's pretty sweet. ngl, i'm kind of excited to present my summer reading project tomorrow. woo? well anyway. pictures are also tomorrow.... hmm, what to wear? no ideas yet. either a flannel or v-neck i guess? meh. i gotta decide. not really a lot to talk about today. i hope this school year continues this way :) <3.

ps. i really want to put in my 0g's.

edit. i wish i said more meaningful things here. this was on my mind today. i've been thinking that i only feel this way because it's a nice feeling to have. i feel like i'm settling. maybe that's not the case at all. but i feel like i'm waiting and waiting and will be disappointed in the end. i don't know what i'm waiting for anymore. i think about it and i have trouble thinking of a positive outcome. that really upsets me. i don't think my mind is playing tricks on me when i say i want us. but is that really ever gunna happen? i just don't see it anymore. don't get me wrong, i like you. but am i wasting my time? that's what it seems like. i don't want to bother you with this shit, and that's definitely not the best attitude to have. but idk. effort needs to come from 2 people. the girl always waits for the boy, so maybe that's unfair of me to say. i'm so stubborn. but i am trying. damn, i'm a hypocrite sometimes. i don't know what to try for anymore. ughughugh. i need to see you. and know what i'm feeling. and you say you want to see me, too. i'm sorry, but words don't mean much to me until they are backed up by actions. i know you're busy. but 3 months, really? i don't think i ever want you reading this but if you do by some chance, oh well. i don't exactly want to be confronted. just take action. well. dave melillo on repeat. seems to fit. xo.

At the end of every hard earned day, people find some reason to believe.

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today was ariiight. had breakfast with ilfpog and then they leftttt. meow. then did nothing. homework, projects, blah, bullshit. whatever. going to watch the vma's now. bye :)

edit. vma's were intense. team taylor.

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ilfpog :) <3!

edit. tor came over around 2:30 and then we picked up laur and went to michel's. rain is no fun! but then we came back, and i asked them if i could use them for a photoshoot for my photo assignment. it wasn't perfect in the beginning but i got some really cool pictures at the end. like today's. thank you for being patient with me :). anyway, after that, we ordered pizza and then watched icarly. LOL life. went to 7-11 at midnight. i love bestfriends, something i know will never change. massive homework to do tomorrow. oh funnnn. peace!

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rapist picture? oh, laura. WELL, really fucking glad that it's the weekend. seriously, school? ugh. so this morning i decided to be retarded, it was quite an ~emergency~ i gotta say. LOL late to first period. oh well. i feel like going through my sched, because i haven't before. today was day 3. so first was math.... fucking fun. i'm ALREADY confused. really? definitely a good sign. after math was double chem. that's really fun, too. my class is mad obnoxious, i hate boys in my grade. GROW UP. screaming penis when the teacher walks out of the room is evidently not that funny, actually. so... yeah. 4th is spanish. a little bit excited for this class, actually. it's definitely gunna be different from my 3 other years of spanish. and my teachers mad chill. so that's gooood. it's a weird course because the school's retarded. so a majority of people in the class are juniors. oh. welllll, 5th is lunch! still need to work out meeting up but oh well. waited at kristina's locker for like 10 minutes LOL. finally went to lunch, sat with jake and connor. then katrina and kristina came! seni0r cafeteria~ LOL life. lunch with alla them is so much fun, seriously. hahahaha. 6th i had gym. fun? don't really know anyone there, i can already tell it won't be a fun time. i miss gym in 8th grade, that was the fucking besttt. today, all we did was get our locks and pick our lockers. fun shit. 7th wassss. uh. photo! fucking best class of the day. sit with natalie and heather, and in the same order as science with lena in 8th :) hahaha. too fucking funny, alla us. this is gunna be a great class, wish it was full year, like it used to be! raeihle ~enjoyed~ the 10 pictures i brought in, yayyy! i'm so glad i have a pro photographer for a teacher, i barely learned ANYTHING in intro. excited. after 7th is always interesting... haha. walked with nat to 8th, global. OBNOXIOUS CLASS, i really dislike it. stone is okay, so far? kind of annoying but whatever. i like global so i'll make the best of it. btw, first homework of the year and i didn't do it, LOL. my life. 9th is english. definitely the best possible way to end the day. heathahhh is in my class, and my teacher is fucking great. he's one of those really chill, discreet literature nerds. and it's awesome. he's really nice tooooo ha. idk if it's just because i'm only 3 days in, but things are actually seemingly positive so far. as long as a don't get a shitload of work, this year will be great. seriously. i hope dropping the IB shit paid off, and i can actually enjoy my life. got home from school, chilled, did a little homework. then mama ahhhh came home and we went to go see "all about steve." prob one of the most original movies evar. it's really good, dw. especially the ending :). soooo after this i'll prob go finish my math hw, because i have nothing else to do. xo.

ps. hopefully, this time, you're telling the truth. that'd be lovely. <3

edit. just read through a lot of blogs from last year. holy shit. things have changed so, so much. so much that it's unbelievable. i was so fucking unhappy. now, there's really no reason to be. i'm upset sometimes, yeah, everyone. but at least, in general, i'm happy. i feel like my blogs have lost their depth. whuttttt. i should try to fix that. sooo, what am i feeling? hm. well. i just need to say that 2 different groups of friends mixed is really awkward. dnw it. not that i act differently, but i don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable / left out. whyyyyy, this is so random. also; i'm really sick. that's prettttty cute. oh man. i still wonder if anyone reads this, LOL. idk. i'm done. peace.

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working on my shooting for my photo project. that obv isn't what i will be making but i did some stuff like that, along with a bunch of other themed stuff. pretty good so far. i like having no direct guidelines. school was alright today, more fun than yesterday. did most of my summer reading project tonight. doesn't really matter because my english teacher is so chill. i feel like this year is gunna be just like 8th grade, mostly because of the people i'll be spending a lot of time with, but also because i have great teachers. and trust me, if it's anything like 8th grade.... i'll love it. optimism. xo.

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and it begins. first day of sophomore year today. i don't really know what to say about it. it didn't exactly suck, because we really didn't do anything. i'm glad i have good teachers and at least some friends in my classes. unlike last year, LOL. today as a day didn't suck, but school definitely does. i'm just saying that i know what's coming and i'm not happy about it. i'm not ready for hours of homework and studying and tests and projects and stress every day for 10 months. it seriously is hell. i'm not trying to complain, but last school year was the worst of my life, and if this year is like that, i'll be miserable. again. idk. today was pretty good, as far as first days good. after school, i did more supply and clothes shopping. oh, btw, joyce leslie is officially my favorite store, thanks. today's picture is my binders and notebook and whatnot. i'm feeling pretty confident about bein organized this year. i need to try harder and study so i guess i need to push myself more. idkkk. i miss summer already. seriously, summer 2009 was probably the best one i've had, ever. best friends, shows, you, europe... and so much more. i wouldn't change a second. i was truly happy this summer, and that's all i can ask for. soooo, not really looking forward to school tomorrow. double period math first thing in the morning. ugh. oh! forgot to mention. i'm really really glad to have advanced dig. photography with raeihle this year. he's an awesome teacher & my brother had him. he's definitely a lot better than my photo teacher last year. it's only been one day and i feel like i'm going to be a better photographer very soon. i have a really interesting assignment that's due monday. at least 24 shots due every monday! damn, that's a lot. but at least i'll be a more active photographer. really glad about that. anyway. i'll be going now, i'm sooo tired. xo.

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officially the last night of summer, oh god. it's a school night, what? ughhhh. read 1984 all day, cleaned, laundry and stuff. decided on my outfit for tomorrow. fun times -_- pretty boring day, really :/. after my mom got home, we went to staples and got binders, papers, etc. i love new binders. LOL what, freak. so, the first day is always kind of exciting i guess? the first day. and that's it. i'm not looking forward to it, though. 10 months of hell. seriously, if i am as miserable this year as i was last year.... idek what i'll do. i can't take school. i really can't. it's 10:30 and i'm not tired at all. waking up at 5:45am, that's really coooool. NOT. ugh. i'm really glad i finished my reading, though. still have to do the whole project but whatever, that's what tomorrow is for. there isn't really much else to say. summer 2009 was fucking amazing, definitely. i wouldn't change a second of it. thankful for all my friends and the people who are worth being with every night. love you all. so, i'm a sophomore tomorrow.... hope this year is okay. xo.

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so, for the first half of the day, all i did was clean and read 1984. how exciting. then i showered and went school shopping with mama ahhhhhh. i kind of hate shopping but at least i got cute stuff. still deciding on what i want to wear the first day of school. meh. i got home around 9pm and was trying on my clothes when tor called and said she was bored. last night of summer so her and amanda decided to drive out here and hang out. law walked to my h0use and they picked us up. so much fun, seriously. blasting music and being obnoxious while driving around is probably the best thing ever when you're bored. we went to 7-11 and mcdonald's and other random places LMAO. then we drove around law's neighborhood until we had to drop her off :( after we dropped her off we visited sammy and jake at their house, how qtttt! then it was time to go homeee. amanda dropped me off and i said bye, it was a really good way to end my summer :) <3.

ps. i didn't talk to you all day. but i didn't think about that until right now. ha.

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hahahahaha, what a good fucking day. woooo, finished jane eyre last night, so started 1984 this morning. good thing i gotta be done by tomorrow. that should be fun? but anyway. at 2pm, tor and laur picked me up and jim drove us to tanger outlets! yayay fun :) i got red mango and we went to johnny rockets for lunch, mmm. went shopping for a while, i got 2 v-necks, 2 pairs of jeans and new shoes :D! went to red mango again, LMFAO so fat. so good. afterrrr we shopped, and saw a disgusting amount of people we know, mama rizzo picked us up around 6. dropped us off at my houseee, we watched nemo and had pizza for dinner! yummy. took a million pictures, a lot of them were upside down hahaha. including today's. i love it because it looks like they're walking on the ceiling, LOL. life. sooo after dinner, we finished nemo and then went on a walk. johnny called to see what laur was doing and we decided to hang out. he picked us up with joe and then we went to centereach for go karting! yay fun. got home at 11:45. from then on has been pure fucking hilarity. new friends are great, glad that not everyone in the world is stupid, immature and ignorant. still fucking laughing. hahahaha. life. <3

edit. meow. best <3.

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just like every other day with laur. and we never get sick of it. "spongebob starts at 4, come over now!" ps pizza delivery episode will always be the best. another interesting night. check mah twitter for quotes, because we're definitely retarded. twitter.com/catherineTRS. lovelovelove.

edit. eh. as soon as i sit back and think about things, i get upset. no real reason. i always feel like going at walks at times like these. i did last night but i can't right now. idk. you "feel the same" but when does that show? i mean, i can't exactly have expectations for you, but i'd appreciate effort. on your part. not just mine. you miss me, but don't exactly seem that desperate to actually see me. what? i'm sorry but i hate when promises are broken. do you realize how unimportant i feel? especially when MY efforts go ignored. i'm trying here. and i'd appreciate if you did, too. i don't know if i'm just being a needy bitch right now, but hey, actions speak louder than words. i'm waiting for your actions. um, i'm tempted to delete all of that right now. oh well.

edit 2. i wish i was beautiful.

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hmm, today was pretty boring. woke up with laur at 7:45am -_- lmfao. 4 hours of sleep. anyway, showered and then we went to the high school. she had to see her guidance counselor so i sat outside while she talked to her. after that, we walked around looking at where all our classes were... fun. this year is gunna suck. fucking trig AND chem? really. i'm gunna die. hopefully i don't have as much work as last year. blaaah. anyway, we got back to my house at 10:30 and made lunch, mmm! it was good. all we do is eat lmfao. then, we walked to laur's and she charged her phone while i played with kit-tee. so qt. mama ah called and said she needed me so i walked homeee, laur and i never reunited =[ oh life. so ummm, what else have i done? well, for the past couple of hours, i've been alternating sleeping and reading jane eyre. at the moment, i'm on page 375. only 149 to go! oh and then, of course, i have to read another book -_- ugh life. well... i should probably go and read more. peace.

edit. so throughout may and june, i had pretty much one band on repeat. i haven't listened to them all summer and they've been on repeat for hours now. this band is he is we. they are fucking amazing, this is putting me in a good mood. despite you. mehhhhhhh whatever :) reading my life away, byeeeeee.

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i finally got my camera back today, couldn't be more happy. plus you're really cute. smiles all day. today was fucking interesting... really can't even explain it. might edit later. laur's not here right now but she's sleeping over....... hmm word. xo.

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ahhhhhhhhhhh i'm dying for a lot of reasons but i'll tell you about my day first! woke up around 12 and tor and law woke up at 1. showered and got ready and stuff, then mike and mike took us to mcdonalds. omg, so fat. ahahaha. "WHY DOES IT SMELL LIKE ABERCROMBIE ASSHOLES IN HERE?" lmfao life. anyway, got back to my house and ate. then decided to walk half an hour to best yet... to buy rainbow cookies. lmfao i love my best friends. so, here's the exciting part. as we were walking, ftsk was tweeting... and they said they were gunna announce the fall tour dates. AKA THE ROCKET SUMMER DATES. AKA MY FAVORITE BAND. holy fucking shit. as the dates started coming, we had our fingers literally crossed haha. and thennnn... 11/9: highline ballroom, 11/11: the crazy donkey, and 11/12: starland ballroom. holy. fucking. shit. almost died. called my mom and told her. now, here's the problem. the academy is... is coming to the donkey 11/8 and then irving plaza 11/11. i have tickets for those shows. so basically, i need to chose between my 2 favorite bands on 11/11. if i can't go to jersey TRS, i'm definitely selling my TAI ticket for 11/11. today's picture is of the tickets i might have to sell or give away :/. eh, either way, i see my favorite person in the world in 68 days. i just got the chills. sooo, went into best yet and bought our food, mm. sat outside and ate while we waited for amanaaaa to pick us up. she dropped me off at home and then i said bai to laur and tor. basically walked inside, went on my computer and watched my favorite live video of bryce. dead. chills again. now i'm listening to him. of course. laur just stopped by to pick up her glasses and contact case because she left them here. lmfao. ass :). it's 6:45pm now and i'm gunna go read jane eyre. so fun. i'm actually excited for my mom to get home so i can discuss this with her. i really hope i can go to jersey, but it's a thursday :(. i've seen bryce in jersey before, but it was a saturday. ehh. i hope everything works out. but hello, william eugene beckett in 67 days and stephen bryce avary in 68. 2 favorite people in the world. my life couldn't get better. xo.

edit. read a lot of jane eyre. 95% sure i will be going to the rocket summer on the 11th. and i'm getting my camera back tomorrow. ohhhh, life :)

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mmmm, best friend! today i woke up, ate french toast for breakfast! yum. after thattt, i showered and whatnot. read a lot of jane eyre, i'm on page 160 or something? worddd. kinda stressed about school starting and shit but whatever. tor called and asked if she could come over, duh. she came at 4:30 and this picture is what happened... of course. listened to blg, cobra, etc. after a little while, laur came ovaaa! woo fun. mama ah drove us all ze way to port jeff to have dinner there, mm. good. and it was sunset :D! yayayay, so after dinna, we walked around a little bit and then got ice cream/candy. it was actually really cold.... wtf. anyway. went home a little while later. i love mah best friendddds, more than you know. went to blockbuster and walked around for a good 10 minutes... found nothing. lmfao only us. now we're back at mah house, they sleepin overrrr! woooo love life. xo. ps. i really miss my camera, come home please? :(