31.

so i was doing my hair this afternoon and saw this. it's not exactly what i wanted but i still like it. i like how everything around the window is completely black. i don't like the glare of the sun and i wish i had a better camera but i do still like the shape of it. anyway. i haven't really done anything today. had to work out some plans. but it looks like laura, tor and tracy are coming here tonight. thank god. i need my best friends :'). hahahaha good picture coming for tomorrow probs! hehe. ps. today marks the completion of one month! i'm really proud of myself. 1 down, 11 to go (: this is so much funnnnn! bye!

30.

2 pictures today, because last night was so epic. i missed the boys in valencia so much, it's insane. 8 months! anyway, i got there a little before doors, and met up with marissa. when we were going in, the asshole of a guy that works there (the one that gives me hella problems EVERY TIME), guess what he did? GAVE ME PROBLEMS. this time i printed out my receipt and showed him. but NOW he's like, um, where's your id? and i'm like ............ i don't have it. and he goes on this rant about how i need it. and i'm just standing there, apoligizing, because i don't want to get him pissed off and whatnot. while in my mind, i'm cursing him to hell. i was so ... FRUSTRATED. i didn't know what to do. he told me i would have to buy another ticket. good thing i had no money! so marissa quickly handed me a 20 dollar bill, and i love her. the people in front of me bought their tickets and then i went to give the lady the money to buy mine. she quickly waved me by, seeing as she saw the whole thing that happened. i smiled at her and didn't hesitate to run in. i gave the money back to marissa and told her what happened. thank god their are good souls in the world. so we got in, and i was pumped. i knew the valencia guys would be hanging out the entire time before and after the show, because they always do. within like, an hour, i had talked to all of them (: so sweet. my best friend and i reunited (brendan walter, of course.) and took the traditional numerous pictures throughout the night. all the bands before valencia were really gooood. off city limits, set in color, artist vs. poet, and houston calls. right after houston calls ended, i looked back at the valencia merch and saw george about to walk away. we made eye contact and i gave him a thumbs up and mouthed "good luck." he smiled and nodded. it was a great moment. they went on and they were amazing, as always. i always have fun in their pits. one of the few bands i can say that about. but yeah, it was a great show. during the last song (the space between!) george got into the crowd. at one point he was standing up, completely supported by his loyal fans. it felt amazing. he was right above me. it was just a great feeling to be surrounded by peole screaming the lyrics along with me, and shane as well. so yeah, it was amazing. also, when george got back on stage, he decided to throw his water bottle at the crowd and get me SOAKED. hahaha. i hate him. luckily my hair was curly...... anyway. i was so proud of them. after their set, i went to the back and talked to them some more. it was good hangs. love my boys. i talked to brendan and george the most. more pictures with the best friend, because it's just the way it goes. i also yelled at george HAHA. he felt my hair was like, aw i'm sorry! and hugged me. hahaha. OH and, you might notice a big wet spot on my arm in the picture with brendan..... yeah ...... THANK YOU GEORGE. hahaha, i can't. but yeah. best friend also signed my v hoodie. on the end of the right sleeve, like, the hand part. idk why but it feels like an important place to me. in a little while, i went around and said bye to all of them. i said to george, "bye! i'll see you soon, right?!" and he's like, "yes, veeeeeeeeeeery soon." oh man. i can't wait. after i left, i couldn't stop smiling. okay, i think this was long enough. i think i'm going to the mall with my best friends today. I MISS THEM. and 3 day weekend! reeeelaxation ;D. yay. okok, hope all is well. peace!

ps; we all need a reason to believe.

29.

so, it's finally over. i'm so relieved. all 4 of my midterms were not as hard as i expected. i didn't study INSANELY but i'm glad i did review what i did. now, i have 3 days of relaxation (: so, later on tonight, is valencia! i'm so excited. first of all, i haven't seen those boys since may 3rd! that's insane. i miss them so much. second of all, i haven't been to a show since december 30th! haha. i've been missing all the familiar things. i can't wait for tonight or this weekend. i miss my best friends. have a good one (:

28.

this book is seriously amazing. that is the top of a marketplace in mexico. it's one of my favorites so far. no idea what i'm doing today. have to study at some point :/. oh well. bye.

27.

so, today was pretty epic. i woke up at 6:30am, not cool. i had a midterm from 7:45-10. good to get it over with. i came home and cleaned my hamster cage. then, i went to the doctor with my brother. this really isn't too exciting yet! but oh well. after the doctor, we stopped at home, and then went to pick up chris jung! we then went to marios and had nomnomnoms. it was delicious, pretty much. after that, we decided to take all of our cameras to the mall to shop and take pictures. fun times. this picture was taken in H&M in the smithaven mall. we were there for about 2 hours. we also went to barnes and noble. man i love that store :'). i am such a geek at heart. i bought THE COOLEST book! it's actually a 365 project as well! it's called "Earth From Above; 365 Days" it's so amazing. all the pictures are aerial. (sp?) ahaha. but yeah, they are so awesome. i didn't get a chance to look at all the pictures and read the descriptions just yet, but i'm up to april 21st ^_^ so, tomorrow i don't have any midterms! i have 2 possible plans hahaha, but i really need to study for bio, for that is one of my weaker subjects :(. oh well. hope your day went well! goodbye.

26.

tracy (: lalala. so i need this cameraaaaaa because my sucks. i'ma save up my money to buy one :D and i wanna have a good camera when/if i go to europe! my math and spanish midterm were actually mad easy. i hope i don't jinx myself by saying that. MKAY BYE.

25.

so today is boring. this is what i looked like LOL. okay, now, down to buisness. i have to go study for math, hardcore. ALRIGHT. 10am tomorrow morning, midterm. and then spanish at 12. wish me luck.

24.

so, i'm hopefully going to europe for three weeks this summer. it's through a program called people to people. in order to get in, i have to submit this application, meet for an interview, and pay tuition. i think it's worth it and i'm willing to save up and pay for some of it. i went to a meeting today and it looks like so much fun, i really want this. of course, my dad has to try to ruin it for me. i wanted to talk about it with my parents after the meeting, and my dad told me he has some "concerns." the first thing was money. i know we don't have $6,500+ lying around but it's not like i won't pay for some of it. then he gave me some bullshit about how my education will be very "one-sided" and asked me if i thought god would be mentioned once. do i give a shit? do i fucking care about you and your stupid fucking religion that you try to shove down my throat? if you're going to hold me back because i'm not gunna learn about god and you're not going to be "involved" then just shove it up your ass. this is a once in a lifetime oppurtunity. i was invited to go to england, italy, and france. are you gunna take this priviledge away from me because of your stupid "concerns" ? honestly? this is bullshit. i will fight for what i want, you just wait and see.

edit. i've been thinking so much lately about my uncle. he died december 23rd, 2006. the last time i saw him was the thanksgiving a month earlier, because he lived in pennsylvania. he was sent to the hospital because he had an aneurysm that he had neglected for some time and it caused him to collapse. he had internal bleeding and was in and out of consciencness. this however...was in pennsylvania. while i was here, in new york, frantic. my aunt called my mom hysterical and i remember the fear in my mom's eyes as i watched her on the phone with her little sister. she left right away for pennsylvania, not thinking to take me. i don't blame her, at the time i don't think i could've handled it. idk. i remember getting numerous calls from her and my other aunt about his condition. a phone call did not come without sniffling. he wasn't getting better. i went to stay at my friend's house because i didn't want to be in mine. my dad picked me up 2 days later, and the car ride was silent. there was something grave about his eyes that scared me. he pulled over and said, "catherine, i'm sorry, but your uncle didn't make it." even though i was kind of ready for it, it completely caught me off guard. the silent tears ran down my face just like they had been the past 5 days. i didn't say goodbye. looking back, i wish i went with my mom. no matter how hard it was to see him like that. i wish i could've just said goodbye. i needed closure. it just felt like he left, and took a huge part of my life with him, without telling me. he left his family suffering more than anyone should and in so much debt. my aunt is handicapped and her sons are, well, difficult. over the past years, their town has had fundraisers for them and their family has helped them out a lot. everyone loved my tio eddie. everyone who met him said his smile was contagious and his laugh was infectious. he was just the guy that everybody wanted to be around. my favorite uncle. so, a couple minutes ago, the song "view from heaven" by yellowcard came on. it hit me hard. it's been on repeat since then. "and i'm sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here. and if we all believe in heaven, maybe we'll make it through one more year..i hope all is well in heaven, cause it's all shot to hell down here. i hope that i find you in heaven, cause i'm so lost without you down here. you won't be coming back, and i didn't think to say goodbye. i really wish i got to say goodbye." rest in peace, t. i love you.

23.

such a 3OH!3 mood today haha. listening to them all day, and right now actually ! and i'm wif marietta (: hehe. whateverrrrr. gotta study SO MUCH this weekend. midterms start monday. oh no :x OKAY BYE.

22.

gotta keep this one short, i'm in a rush. this is my bio homework haha. so much work this week, it's insane. i only like this because my hand writing is pretty good here (: ahah. tomorrow's friday, which means one more day of review before midterms! wish me luck...

21.

my hamsters are insane. exhibit a; above. this little guy is named avary. wonder why :'). jsyk, the other one is named beckett. hahaha i'm a loser. it's okay. so today, i have the littlest amount of homework i've had in months. only 2 subjects! they were both packets but i finished them pretty fast. anyway... thoughts for today.... it's funny how fast people can slip away from out lives. a number of events have occurred in the past few days that have reminded me of that. it's just weird, you know? either one day, you have someone and the next day you don't, or that someone drifts away slowly, which is equally or maybe even more painful. it's just weird to think about. my friend kat said something today and i just love the way she worded it. "whoever said that distance brings you closer must not have known that when you're out of sight, you're out of mind." it's so true. i think i need to vent about people, and probably will sometime soon. thanks for reading. peace.

20.

there is no way to measure the amount of pain and joy in this book. since november 2006, this has been my savior, my ultimate listener. it doesn't care how much i complain or how much i curse or how bi-polar i seem. the one who always understands. for 2 years i have written in it. and i'm finally winding down on the amount of pages i have left. i have about 7 or 8. it's kind of a sad thing. so many events in my life have been recorded right here. i've poured out my soul and never looked back. lately i've been reading over a lot of old stuff, and it's crazy how much my life has changed over time. for better and for worse. i've recognized my patterns, the way i handle the same situations, that just present themselves in different ways. i always go back and make notes to myself, remember this, or this has changed. i feel like if i found it in 10 or 20 years i would still understand exactly who i was. and that's a great feeling. i've bought another journal already, so i'm ready when i run out of pages in this one. thank you for always being there, even if you didn't know you were.

19.

i miss christmas time. i wish it could've been better...
"some day, i'm sure i'll get the picture, and stop waiting up."

18.

it's times like these where i wish i had enough money for the camera i want ;(. oh well, it's pretty good i guess. this is a pad of sticky note-style papers. i saw it in staples and thought it was really cool, so bought it :D ahaha. but anyway. i'm still stressed out, even though i did about half of my homework for this weekend. i'm about to go do a science review packet... fun #^!%$!&* blah. school is way too much pressure. anyway. today was alright. i slept over laura's last night and had the best time, clearly. love my lawlaw (: from the moment i stepped out of her house, however, was complete hell. my parents suck, and whatnot. cool. oh well. i guess i'm in a better mood now. but i can't go to the movies for a month, because my life is lovely. i don't even knowww, scwhatever. i enjoy looking through other people's 365 projects, so start one! you don't necessarily have to start new year's day, yaknow? it'd be fun. something to think about! okay, i'm done for today. have a good one (:

17.

this is simple enough... chocolate milk is delish, so laura and i made it this afternoon. saw "the unborn" with my best friends last night... i guess it was pretty good as far as story line, but it was too much like the ring/the grudge haha. the jumpy parts were predictable, and i actually laughed more than i was scared... anyway. i have so much work this weekend, and this upcoming week. the dreaded word; midterms. so much reviewing and whatnot, my head is definitely going to explode. i'll try not to procrastinate. i think i'm going to laura's in a little, because i miss her... it's been 3 hours. oh well. best friends. byebye!

16.

once again, my best friends in the world. period.

15.

snoooooooow! i wasn't too happy walking to and from school in it, though. and of course, it snows all day and we don't get one MINUTE early release. because this is what my school district is. jeeeeeeez. anyway. it's so cold out. it was 6 degrees when i walked to school this morning! and yet i still refuse to wear anything more than a hoodie... idek. okay so, besides that, and the massive amount of homework i have.. today was a good day. i love my best frienddddddds and whatnot. sixth period was so much fun. we had a sub in photo and me, tracy and karina sat next to each other. love them. it was so ridiculously funny, lmao. ALSO, lately i've been addicted to the song "starstruck" by jeffree star ft andrew de torres. IDEK. it's so good. okok i'm off to do my heaps of hw. as always :( goodbye!

14.

this is simple enough. people tell me all the time that i have way too many bracelets, and i don't care. i love them all. they all tell different stories, and that's the exciting part. from when, from where, from who. it's all a matter of how you look at it. this isn't all of them, by the waaaay. i want even more to put on there. so if you wanna be nice, make me a bracelet! i'll seriously never take it off. that's all for today. loveeeeelovelove cat.

13.

welcome to day 13. this is my first best friend. the girl i've known for 9 years. we've been through so much together, whether it be fights, divorce, moving, growing apart, feeling neglected, confusion, stress, and just about anything, basically. and we always find our way back to each other somehow. seriously, since the day we met, i knew we were gunna last. so many things have happened and so many things have kept us apart, but we just kept fighting. and we made it through together. as of now, things are still tough. i can't see her that much. and she's moving soon, again... it doesn't matter though. because i know that no matter what, we'll always have each other. no matter how far away from each other we are. distance doesn't matter. but marietta, you do. thank you for countless memories. all the advice through the years. and teaching me how to be a best friend. i love you so much. nothing will ever break this <3.

12.

so, laura and i came to my house to eat, and i opened my fridge and saw this :D i liked it so i took pictures lmao. laura helped me pick this one (: ayayay! okay i have 7242312 hours of hw, so bye !

11.

this is because this is what i do on sunday nights, from 8-11:30. i love my at fives. but not gunz LOL. no, but really. it wouldn't feel like a sunday without him. so, i don't really have a lot to say! laura came over today and we almost killed ourselves on the ice walking to my house. then we practiced spanish for like 2 hours ... HA. it helped. now, i gotta go take a shower and then it's gunz show time. you should go listen, too! idobiradio.com, at 8pm, it'll be on the upper right corner. all you have to do is download it to itunes and listen. it will be a good one tonight! that's all i got (: bye!

10.

hahaha. okay, this is because my cat apparently likes to venture into the snow. i was taking pictures from my doorway and he ran out. i bet he had a fun time. anyway, i like this picture a lot because it represents things that walked out of your life, your past. yaknow? idk. that's how i think about it. it's also really simply. simplicity is a wonderful thing sometimes. alright, that's all i got today. i may be going out to dinner with some friends later (: have a good day! byeeee.

9.

hello, these are my best friends. period. tonight has been so much fun already. saw benjamin button again, LMAO. it was just as amazing, omg. we're probably going out to 7-11 later to get gatorade ... lol omg. i can't stop laughing tonight. it's amazing. i love my best friends to death, thaaaaaanks. i don't know what else to write about because tracy's talking very loud and it's distracting (: okay bye <3

8.

first of all, i can't believe i've done this for over a week without fail. it's becoming really important to me. okay so, the picture. i really, really love this bracelet. not only because it's from one of my favorite bands, but because it means something. i love this message. it's telling you that not only can you do what you're able to do, but you can do anything you want to. if you only have dreams. i also just love this picture because of it's simplicity. the reflection on the table is also a nice touch. anyway, i've been so stressed out this week. i have 2 projects due tomorrow, a quiz, and endless homework. i barely have time for this right now, but i needed a breather. i'm really proud of myself, because i'm starting to work into a lot of my new year's resolutions. it's pretty awesome. okay, i'll be going now (: bye!

7.

this is because i have an insane amount of homework tonight, even more than usual. jeeeeeez. one of my new year's resolutions was to manage my time better, and i hope i'm starting to pull that off. i had to do ; 5 really big math problems, read 1 chapter of a book and answer questions, make vocab flashcards for spanish, and a page long assignment of questions for biology. that's what i did already. now all i have to do is 2 pages in a global review packet and work on 2 projects that are due on friday. oh the joys of freshman honor classes...... shoot me. okay, i'm off to go do that stuff, yaknow. thank you for reading my complaining, if you did. i really love this 365 project (: bye!

6.

oh hay. i got bored one day in school and did this. it's a page full of the rocket summer lyrics. i love how it came out, even though it started as a doodle. no matter what, everything i wrote just seemed to work, and i didn't make any mistakes. i just love it. and i seriously love everything bryce avary has ever written. this page is on the back of my math binder, and every time i see it, i have to smile (: in other news, my eyes hurt & they're so red, it's insane. my lifeee. oh well. bye!

5.

alright so, this is basically because i'm a loser. yesterday, i saw the curious case of benjamin button (hence the b. button) and it was simply the greatest movie ever made. seriously, it makes you think and it's just amazing. if you haven't seen it, i strongly suggest you do. and don't complain that it's 3 hours long, because it's worth every second. i love it so much that i'm going to see it again this weekend with my friends, probably ahahaha. go see it! (: goodbye.

4.

not too much inspiration today hahaha. i do, however, love the way this came out. i didn't edit it. the sun is really bright in my room in the morning. and i kinda love my camera sometimes. today is full of work i've been putting off and dreading the whole vacation. oh well. i almost want to go to school tomorrow. idek. that's all for today. bye!

3.

these are my best friends. our hands say tortor, kiddy, and lawlaur. ilfpog! whenever we hang out, we have the best time, seriously. i could not ask for anything better than this friendship. they are all i need. laura and tor, i love you endlessly, and thank you for everything <3.

2.

this is the cover of a poetry collection that i'm putting together for my creative writing class. i decided to call it "waiting" because i'm waiting for this year to start. for the adventures and memories to begin. i also included a quote from the rocket summer's song, "waiting" because i thought it would fit. "waiting, waiting, i'm trying to get out, to get out, but i'm locked right in. so take this, take this away from me. so i can live, so i can live." i really hope the poetry collection comes out as nice as the cover.

1.

alright, i've made a decision. i'm going to take a picture every single day of this year, and post it here. yep, three hundred and sixty five pictures. i hope they will depict my life and gave me many memories to look back on eventually. the first of many:



this represents the dawning of a new year. a whole year full of opportunities, memories and things i will never forget. while there were many things written on the 'december' page of my old calendar, there is nothing in january 2009. hopefully opportunities start coming my way.

new year.

so, it's 2009. that's weird. 2008 was the most amazing year of my life, without a doubt. i wouldn't trade it for anything. so far, this year hasn't been so great. as i was watching the tv of times square in a house full of my family, the countdown started at 10. those seconds flew by and when they yelled 1, it hit me. it felt so wrong. i started crying so hard. it was the beginning of a new year and i wasn't where i wanted to be. i wanted to be celebrating with my friends, having fun, making memories. i just felt like my 2008 ended on a bad note and 2009 started on one. i would've given anything to be somewhere else. it just felt so wrong. it was also the first new years i've ever spent without my brother. things were changing too fast and i couldn't handle it. today hasn't been that much better. idk. hopefully this year will improve.