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today is a crying day. fighting with my parents all day, and barely in a good mood. also, there are these feelings i get that are hard to explain. i think about how dirty my house/room is, and like all my homework and just all these different things at once and i feel like i will never get anything done in time. i feel like i'm drowning. it's overwhelming. it helps to make a to-do list, so i think i'll go do that. i feel like the biggest bitch on days like these because the smallest most insignificant thing will piss me off so much. ugh $*&!*^%@&*^# i hate these days. also, i need my mom to say yes to the 3 tai dates i want to go to. CT on the 14th, NJ on the 15th, and NYC on the 19th. i have tickets to NYC but i need to convince her about the other 2. blaaaaaah. i feel selfish but .... i miss tai so much. my 2nd favorite band. honestly, i need them because music and shows are the only things that keep me going, give me joy and something to look forward to. i need this. ps; i thought about it today, and i won't see bryce for another year. i want to cry ); but then i just think back to 2 weeks ago. and it makes me so happy.

so, that's all for now. i'll probably end up writing more later on today. so whatev. bye!