i'll make this quick. i went to tropical smoothie with these girls today. then back to lauren's. this doesn't happen enough. it should. love you all. now, going to faye's with laura hopefully. xo.
edit. so it's 2:31am right now and i'm dead tired. but i need to write. about my day and also what i'm feeling. after i got home from lauren's, i walked halfway to meet laura and faye. we decided it was perfect walking weather and proceed to walk to taco bell. ate, whatevs, went to the bowling alley and nick picked us up. ahahaha. amazing night, i haven't laughed that much in a long time. then i got home and mike, henry, erik, jill and dan were at my house. we drove around doing shenanigans, obviously. however. i sat in the back of mike's car with "kissing in cars" on repeat. "As we wake up in your room, your face is the first thing I see. The first time I've seen love, and the last I'll ever need. You remind her that your future will be nothing without her. Never lose her, I'm afraid, better think of something good to say. But its all been done more than once. I'll keep trying. Oh, God don't let me be the only one who says... No, at the top of our lungs there's no, no such thing as too young. Second chances won't leave you alone. Then there's faith in love." idk how to explain this. i said this earlier; i refuse to watch you slip away, you will DROWN even in this shallow town. and it's true. i can't let you go. as stupid as it is you make me feel like i really don't know how to explain. perfect. and there are no words. i wish i didn't feel like shit, though. about how i am. how can i stand out to you? i feel like such an idiot. again. i thought i was way past this feeling. now i just know how much it sucks. again.
edit 2. i want to cry. i just want to cry. i don't know why. it's not going anywhere but that still seems to be downhill. i don't stop thinking about you.
